Desire

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Desire

I can't tell you how much my desire to compose and play music has grown. All of my blues, from the darkest parts of hell and misery here on earth, are released when I self-express. Earlier today I was in a funk, a dark place and I was mad as hell, I should've known that I was to play. My only option was to turn my guitar's gain all the way up and pour my feelings out into the microphone so that I could hear my pain dissipating into the air. This wasn't enough though, I had to keep going at full speed and intensity for half an hour and this got the job done, at least for a little while. My hell was still present. It wasn't until I put another hour and twenty minutes into composing and working with licks over a heavy track, and then recording those ideas that I truly started to feel better. It was a feeling that was going to last, one that wasn't going to be short lived.

Afterwards I'm still in my car listening to previous things that I've recorded, like something I recorded two nights ago, and something I just finished recording. Its in my blood and whenever I get mad at the world its only through composing that I get fixed, I can talk to people again. Composing, writing and singing is my outlet but the misery blocks me from seeing what I truly need to do. Maybe the feelings haven't been fully expressed in previous songs. This is why it's important to keep going and who cares if you have more than one version of the song. Too many times I let this get the best of me, being one-version minded. Now I have several versions of songs and they get better with each passing take. As time goes on and I keep practicing, I get better and my ideas come to fruition and I can start to truly express the way that I feel and what I REALLY want to say.

Help

I haven't been the only one to go through this and from their pain, the ones who have gone before me, I benefit. I took a pair of licks today and went to town on them, the more pain I experienced the more I needed to push through to stay sane and keep focused on the task at hand. Thoughts of a negative nature plagued my mind and the harder I fought the harder I played.

Without some kind of guide from the great players that have come before me I'd be totally lost. I used to think that this was a complete waste of time, trying to learn from somebody else, when in actuality it was an arrogant way of thinking. I've now humbled myself and consistently take the time to learn from those who have been tested and tried throughout their careers and have rallied through all the way to the end. These guys have a lot to offer, and I'd be wrong to not take advantage of this. If it worked for them, it can work for me too.

Unfinished

I'm not done yet, not for the day and not in my musical life, and I don't think I will be for a long time to come. I could go for another hour or so before I have to get back in there and fight again. I have to read that new article on EVH and get re-inspired and later on I will most likely play again since it's not even midnight yet. All day I've been thinking about composing and self-expression. Its Saturday, so I thought I had a day off but that's a lie, I started watching TV and the violence and torment within me began to eat at me. I threw a book across the room, banged my fist onto my desk and then yelled at the top of my lungs to no avail. My guitar was calling me and I had no idea.

My microphone was propped up in its natural stance as if it were purposeless, and then it hit me, that feeling that rises when you see yourself playing in front of a crowd. Little did I know that all this gratification would come from banging out some music, I put every thing and everyone on hold and stood in the trenches until the light started to seep through the cracks. The more that I wrote the more that I wanted to stay there. It's too good to be true to think that what I just did was enough or that it will last. In the world of music, or at least in my world there are things inside that I need to release and express. What I'm doing is not enough, at least not for me, I need to blast through some more rhtythm and scorching lead to get to where I wanna go.

About me

I am a guitarist, songwriter, lyricist and guitar teacher. I teach guitar lessons in the Miami, Fl area and if you would like to know more about music and playing guitar you can visit these links for more songwriting information. visit my website

9 comments sorted by best / new / date

    EpiExplorer
    My microphone was propped up in its natural stance as if it were purposeless, and then it hit me
    That could've been a great 'as it fell over' kind of punch line..
    jaytee_metal
    Music is like an "escape" to a different world. That's why I'm writing a song right now, called "Different World"
    BobBlunn
    Music for me too, continually evolves. I can do covers/originals true to form and I know for some once it's written it is set in stone, but being primarily a bluesman I change things up a little every time I play them. Since I'm constantly changing, my music/vibe constantly changes... Thanks for sharing what drives you to play music. So, what are some things to fan the flames of your desires when they don't burn so strongly?
    gypsyblues7373
    When I read "the darkest parts of hell and misery here on earth", "a dark place", "pour my feelings out into the microphone so that I could hear my pain dissipating into the air", "My hell was still present" all in just the first paragraph, my first though was "This guy definitely plays emo" LOL Interesting article though!
    mikesocarras
    yes it would have been eplexplorer sounds like a cool song jaytee. I had another link but it wasnt posted for some reason. Here it is. Get a FREE e-book on progressions entitled "Progression Progress," Scroll down to the right and enter your email address on this site - Get It Here.
    mikesocarras
    on my site that is - sign up to my mailing list and you will receive a free book on progressions in every single key.
    mikesocarras
    It was more of like a story of what I go through on regular basis but some things you can do right away is to write out a musical goal, jam out to your favorite music, but what works most of the time for me is listening to old tapes (or new ones) of myself playing. Also having my lyrics and laptop close by while im practicing helps to keep the top spinning so to speak. Hearing yourself play and having a goal to reach with your playing I find is very helpful.