Page 114 of 114
chaoticfables
all she needed was some
Join date: Jan 2008
2,012 IQ
#4523
agggghhhhh stressed af. between summer school, part-time job and an internship I barely have time to breathe. too tired to feel anything, even depression, which I know is waiting for me when I finish two of those things in the next 2 weeks. not sure why but my friends and i aren't talking or hanging out like we used to, and i'm so fucking lonely during the rare moments of downtime that i actually have.

therapist is identifying my problems without really providing solutions. frustrated.

thinking about taking up boxing next year to relieve this shittiness forreal
my e-wife
mdwallin


soundcloud
a stupid scrapbook for my music
Pastafarian96
Piano nerd for the ages
Join date: Dec 2013
2,471 IQ
#4524
Quote by Pastafarian96 at #33368249
The world around me is falling apart. I'm sick of doing the same thing everyday and being unable to vary it at all, my parents are fed up with me and I haven't got any friends.

I really, really need a hug right now

I remember this



I hate that part of my life so much now

Quote by chaoticfables at #33717965
agggghhhhh stressed af. between summer school, part-time job and an internship I barely have time to breathe. too tired to feel anything, even depression, which I know is waiting for me when I finish two of those things in the next 2 weeks. not sure why but my friends and i aren't talking or hanging out like we used to, and i'm so fucking lonely during the rare moments of downtime that i actually have.

therapist is identifying my problems without really providing solutions. frustrated.

thinking about taking up boxing next year to relieve this shittiness forreal

Last edited by Pastafarian96 at Dec 7, 2015,
Hal-Sephira
The Pretty Reckless
Join date: Dec 2014
1,456 IQ
#4525
Can anybody help me how to quit pornography for life here?
Dean Dave Mustaine VMNTX electric (Black)
Epiphone Les Paul Custom Pro electric (Ebony)
Orange Micro Terror 20W Hybrid head
Kustom 4x12 cabinet
genghisgandhi
Kristaps Porzingis
Join date: Mar 2009
4,337 IQ
#4527
I just had a panic attack for no discernible reason on the day I've been looking forward to for a week. I always feel so shit after nights out, so worthless. Sam Cooke is helping
Krieger91
I Sold The World
Join date: Sep 2009
4,006 IQ
#4529
This situation has been really fucking shitty for the past few months..And I'm still feeling sad as hell. But, the fact that I know there is someone is kind of a relief. Honestly.What happened was, I've been friends with this girl for a while now.In November, I broke up with my girlfriend of a year and a half..The relationship was intense, she was madly in love, the break up was even more intense, and I had spent the last months of the relationship wishing I was single.Anyway, after we broke I was finally (aaaah) single, and she spent 3 or 4 months in an obsession over me, driving me up the wall. Proper psycho stuff.A couple of months after I broke up, this girl moved back in to town as she graduated, and we started spending a lot of time together.During this time together..I started growing more and more attached. And I fucking hated myself for it (this started happening in March, roughly)And a load of confusion arised. Why? Because I didn't want to make a move, though I liked her, because I had recently broken up and it didn't seem like a smart move.I, stupidly, didn't want to tell her, or make her understand it, because I though that it would just complicate things.So, what I did was, I kept it inside, tried to fight it, never told anybody, for months, got more and more angry at myself for feeling it and not being able to control it, obviously we kept in touch, seeing each other, etc. I started developing a load of complexes about myself, looks, personality, lack of life experiences, I started feeling as if I wasn't on par with her or anybody in the world, etc.All the while, trying to fight this..it's literally been a poison I've had inside for ages.So, as you can imagine, now that I've found out that for her there is someone...I'm kind of relieved, deep inside. It's there, it just has to come out. Relieved, because it gives me an excuse to just back out and not think about it...I mean, if I never had an intention of making a move, why did I even care? Don't know.But yeah, we met up at a party, were kind of drunk, and had a long chat about it, I told her, explained my feeling and now it's out there.I wanted to make sure it wasn't reciprocated, and she said it wasn't. I asked her if it ever was and she paused and said no (I swear to god I saw her pause, but it was either my drunken mind making it up or something)Now, I'm sad as fuck. Because, obviously, I really really like her. She asked what she should do, and I asked her to just stop getting in contact with me for a while. No texts, no coffee, no FB, no nothing. She said she hates to because she's really attached to me (imagine a really really closed girl who never tells anyone anything and has opened up to me in the past about some things regarding her family history), but that she'll do it.Not hearing from her for a while, I should recover slowly. Her not existing should help.Sorry about the rant but I'm pretty sad about this and needed to vent. I've kept all of this inside for the past god knows how many months, thinking that, seeming that I'm undecided on making a move, that I should be able to control my feelings for her. Nope.
Never imagine yourself not to be otherwise than what it might appear to others that what you were or might have been was not otherwise than what you had been would have appeared to them to be otherwise
donender
Get back to work
Join date: Oct 2004
2,047 IQ
#4530
Hey guys, i need a bit of help. Haven't posted in a very long while, just kind of lost interest with the board, but i hope you're all doing well.

I am stuck in a rut. I recently turned 26 and I feel like I'm trapped in the situation I'm in. I have been working in retail for the past year and a half or so, and I've got to the point that there is absolutely nothing keeping me there. I feel underappreciated, underpaid, and unmotivated, and recently I have considered handing in my notice on more than one occasion, and the only reason why I haven't is because I think that unemployment would make me even more depressed. The problem is, i have no idea where to go from here; the safest option is to go for a teaching course, as i have a degree, and have a small amount of teaching experience. It'll be a two year course, and would (hopefully) end in a job that would be rewarding and pay well.

The problem is, I am overthinking this to the point where I think

A) What if i can't get onto the course?
B) What if i get onto the course and decide that it's not for me half way through?

The worst part about this is, when I break it down, I know it's stupid and that I should just go for it, but i need to to find a way to get over my anxiety. I think one contributing factor is that a lot of my friends are in jobs that they enjoy, and are earning significantly more than me, and I feel like I should be at this stage with them. One of them is doing something that, if teaching wasn't an option, I would go into that field, and i have been applying to entry level jobs for that kind of role, but so far, hearing nothing back. All of this is making me feel like if i do the teaching course, I'd be taking another step back, while everyone else is moving forward.

If someone could give me a bit of a pep talk on that, i'd really appreciate it.

Another problem is, I have really strong feelings for one of my best friends. We met a few years ago, and hooked up shortly after meeting, but it didn't really work out. We fell out of contact for a little while, then started speaking again about a year ago, and I'm really not sure what to do about this. I keep going between feeling like I can't stop thinking about her, and then coming to the conclusion that if anything were ever to happen, it might be really weird. I don't know if she feels anything for me, and if she ever did, i think that she'd rather keep it as friends. I've been in this situation with someone else before, and I keep telling myself that I should just get over her and appreciate the friendship, because if it were ever to become more, it would have happened by now, but every time I think I'm over it, I find myself besotted with her again.

I might be feeling this way because I'm not interested in anyone else at the moment, and I'm hoping that when I do meet someone I like, I'll get over my feelings for her.
WHOMP

Think of that next time you are not allowed to laugh.