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tell me if you want me to upload my recording of my reading/song of this. enjoy. it has been a hard day and this is what i have to show for it, not much, but i think it'll do.


Scary Movies Part II

When I was young
I used to look across the backyard
Into my neighbors bedroom
And watch a girl undressing
past her bare skin, glowing under
Her man’s hand, simple shadow
working its way down her ass until the
Light flicked off like a slap back to reality
Head straight, knees bent, react fast,
Your heart might not be meant to stay
Beating through the morning
Snap back to when I questioned
If I was going to stay breathing in the morning

The dark outside
The shining inside
Has me staring
Into a makeshift mirror
Late at night
when theres no love to be found
Just a thousand doves in my chest
Whispering to me it’s my time to-


But now I don’t even
get that single break
Neighbors moved away
Eloped with boyhood legacy
Of a young fragile pervert with infinite potential
To change the world

We all want to change
The world when we’re babies
And we all reach
the turning point
when we give way to the rabies
Of the golden dog of maturity
As it arcs away through the sky
And we wave bye
everyone except for me,
who has held on as hard as I can
And my hands
are so burnt from the rope
I can feel the thread wear on my bones
And I can hear the stones in my chest
Rising to create a flutter
Demon inside me
Demon inside me
I’ll do anything to subdue this demon inside me

I’m the only boy I know whose over 19
Still looking in windows for a glimpse at voyeuristic dreams
And the only one who suprises himself
Everytime I take the belt out and tie it around my neck
Who am I testing
In the middle of the night
Gonna take myself out of myself
I promise
I will hurt myself to protect myself
I will hurt myself to protect my loved ones
I will hurt myself tonight

The night is so fragile when it gives birth to the day
I’ve watched it so many times
that I half expect my life to end that way
High up in the sky
where the cloudcover thins to let the light through
And the darkness shatters l
ike static, the glue
falls apart
I get the feeling that my life was a sinister false start
Composed by myself in order to squeeze myself out of myself
Borne to die, everytime I sing is just another cry for
Save me from myself, let me live before I

The dark outside
The shining inside
Has me staring
Into a makeshift mirror
Late at night
When theres no love to be found
Just a thousand doves in my chest
Whispering to me it’s my time to-

That I was borne to die