#1
its been a long time since i've been to the movies
it was last summer, but that was under the influence of
delicate clavicles, and a slightly marlboro voice.

she

told me 'I only go through like, one pack a week'
as my early birthday bought her her like, second.
I was upset. I thought 'youre only in this for the menthol'

and

i may have been scared of her getting cancer, but I didnt want her
to think of me, thinking of us in the long term
that would just have been embarrassing.

in the way

like how yesterday I went to your work and
you recognized me, and i was surprised
but you had no idea why.
i need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah.