Real Name: -name removed by request-

Age: 18

Location: Virginia, US

Favourite Artists: Many. This summer I'm really into Bon Iver, Moby, Janelle Monae, Elvis Perkins, Boyz Noize, and reacquainting myself with the older grunge stuff I listened to several years ago

Most Inspirational Writer: Most inspirational?... Probably selected Vonnegut, at least at the moment. He makes me want to write.

Favourite poet/poem (published writer): Ego Tripping by Nikki Giovanni

If you could be any writer ever, who would you be: Donald Trump. Have you read any of his books? That man thinks he is the bomb diggety, and it would be great to have that attitude about yourself.

If you could be any flavour, which would you be: Clove or mint... though I really enjoy lemon sugar and peach as well, or oregano

Why Do You Write: It's how I process some thoughts. Some things are spatial, some are in images, some can only be expressed physically, but some things are best put in words.

Favourite word(s): I like many words, but one that has stuck with me is 'disenchanted'. Currently I have a real hate for the word 'should'

Favourite Writer(s) on UG: I like many. Ottoavist and rushmore have been long term things but right now I really, really really like SubwaytoVenus and brokencoastline and FunkasPunk

Most Helpful Critic: I'm not sure who the most helpful is, but the ones I like to read are from spike_8kbp. Also everyone is very nice on here which can be encouraging or useless, and some people are occasionaly snarky which can be harshly helpful or unnecessary and masked as constructive

What Do You Do Especially, to Find Inspiration: read, feel terrible and dwell on things

Your Most Recent Work and the Reason Behind It: 'free wil is a lie'; I finally had a clear and distinct thing I wanted to write about. It's been a while. I'm not sure what's going on with me. I seem very static. None of you have said anything about the piece but I'm glad I just got something out.

Tips for Newer Writers: Do what feels right

What’s your goal in writing: I ask myself the same question and sometimes, if I'm being honest with myself, the answers are more superficial than I'd like them to be.

Final Comments or Thoughts: I just went through a very weird and intense time over the past few weeks. I attempted suicide a few weeks ago and many things have changed. For one, after coming home from the hospital and psychiatric ward, I have been completely fine and everything seems to just be incredibly better. This scares me because I'm reluctant to believing that it really is this easy. I have been fighting my depression for years and suddenly everything is just better and it's difficult for me to trust this. My family dynamics have changed... my parents and I are on much better terms and I couldn't be happier at home with them. But again, it's very soon and it's hard to believe that it's this easy. I don't know how to express these things. Most everything I have been feeling lately isn't processed into anything I can create artisically lately. I am changing. I'm just in a weird place, guys.

Also, this is the first time I am openly talking about it to people who are not close with me or not medically required to hear about it. I know this is a weird place to mention it but it's a start; I want to be able to be open and genuine and not play a facade with any of you. I am as mediocre as the rest, and what great mediocrity we can relish in.

Anyway, I thank many of you for supporting my work or even just reading it. I have had some of the most interesting and honest conversations with a select few here

thank you guys. this really means a lot to me.

also, if you're still supposed to post a picture with these things, you can use my default.
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Congratz, Saadia. You've had some incredible pieces of writing lately. Thanks for being an inspiration.

Thank you everyone. Really, your care and support means a lot to me.
As Zach mentioned, I'm in Bangladesh right now, and we'll see what effect it has on my writing.
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& alaskan_ninja

yeah this is really late but just wanted to say great work. i went to a nikki giovanni reading last semester shes crazy (in a good way) haha. good poem.

hope the trip continues to go well.
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