I've Been playing guitar for a while now but I'm new to lyrics
These don't seem to make sense
be extremely critical i will not cry
trying to be abstract
plus i was drunk when i wrote them

Invading my mind like a marauding wave
Arousing deranged ambitious whims
Sentimental introspection
Amnesia what I wish for
Memories what I receive

Thats a verse

I wish to forget
What I remember
The Tree of Life
Is withered in my mind
Reality exists
An illusion in your mind

im going to use one of those two verses as the first verse in a song which is better
I thought your explanation was part of your lyrics Seems like a good start. I thought maybe for the last line, "An illusion lost in time" ?
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