I don't know if these lines will make sense to anyone or if there is anyone who can relate to this. I just put this together a week or two weeks ago. But enjoy and please give me some feedback if you can

The scene outside the window
To my emotions is a guide
So much present guilt and loneliness
And the past, it still resides
I think of all the days I’ve sat regretting
I think of all the tears I’ve cried
Sometimes I wish I was free like leaves in the wind
Or debris along a tide
Do you really think it’s good enough?
All the aid that I provide
Is it better that I’m still here alive
Or is it better that I died?
Maybe I should stop fixing up the roller coaster
And just go on for the ride
Am I really the one you can bear to be with?
Will I just be tossed aside?
All these questions that I ask myself
All these things I try to hide
Any feeling of the pain I have
Any hope and any pride
I wish I could give to the one
The one person I confide
But my brain leads me to different paths
And I can’t get past the great divide
Maybe one day I will tell you all
The things I have always kept inside
It could lead me back to loneliness
But at least I’ll know I tried
^^ Hahah, I'm just kidding.. or am I?

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I think many people could relate to feeling similar to this. I feel like it's similar to the "better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all" theme. I liked most of it, but I'm not sure how it would translate into a song, if thats what the ultimate goal is.
Well I got inspired by the song "Right Where It Belongs" By Nine Inch Nails. I guess it would be in a similar sound.

Thank you both
^^ Hahah, I'm just kidding.. or am I?

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