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#81
Quote by Andrea55
Freaking adbot just quoted me from the first page.

Anyway, sorry I'm not posting any advice right now but I have just been so stressed with things lately. Not only with school but thinking about my ex. It just bothers me that he never cared, just lied to me and led me along. That's why I needed to leave and sort my life out. I can't help but think about it. Even though I have someone else interested in me now I can't stop thinking about the past. I know I need to let it go but it's just so hard. I guess a hug will help me now and maybe some advice about letting go and to stop thinking about the past.

the key to letting go of the past is to realize and accept that you are off better without your ex. some people are cold-hearted like that and youre better off without that guy. after my ex broke up with me i quickly realized that i was better off without her probably, so i got over that with relative ease. youre ex is not worth the time on your mind.

#82
Quote by devourke
Yeah the first time you do it, you feel kind of stupid because it doesn't really feel like much, but if you continue to do it in place of the harmful actions, you come to expect that feeling instead of the feeling that bruising gives you. It takes some willpower but if you manage to completely replace it you'll be a lot more in control of your feelings and shit.


Possibly. Hopefully it doesn't backfire and just make me crave the bruising even more. I feel like I'm in a meditative/vegetative stage already 24/7

Quote by isabiggles
Have you ever thought about taking up kickboxing/muay thai?

I know it's not the same thing but I used to be quite violent/aggressive and i'd lash out at random shit for no good reason. I mean, I like getting hit too but doing kickboxing or whatever means there's a reason for it. It took me ages (having AS) to man up and go down to the gym to learn but it was the best thing I ever did. I'm much happier, more motivated and very calm IRL.

I'm bringing it up because I think it would be perfect for you. Wanting to be hurt isn't necessarily a bad thing (some people just like the feeling) but the way you're going about it is. I mean, it's seriously helped my self-esteem and mental health in general as well as keeping me in great shape and making me much more peaceful.

Obviously I can't force you to give it a go but i'd seriously recommend it. Like I said, best thing i've ever done and I think it would really help you


Maybe you're right. But as I mentioned, I seem to get the satisfaction from doing it to myself specifically. There's just something about bashing myself up and seeing the results. Seeing as I'm pretty physically inactive though, perhaps I should see what some type of sport would do for me. Even though I hate sports and think they're really boring. Oh well

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I'm sorry that you're feeling so conflicted, and it's good that you're talking about it. Talking about it goes a long way towards treating it. It may feel so good to you because you may not really feel any strong emotions, and the self-injury may help fill that gap. Regardless, just remember that all of us are here if you need to talk about it.


Thanks dawg. I do feel strong emotions, but at the same time I feel so dead and immobile, so part of the appeal of self-injury is waking and shaking myself up a bit. Hard to explain. :/

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In the posts like I quoted, I feel it undermines any real comfort, and even the ones with advice that use it, I feel it cheapens whatever was said.


It's a gesture of sympathy. Even when nobody knows what advice to give me, it's nice to be acknowledged and know someone out there wishes the best for me

Quote by Andrea55
Anyway, sorry I'm not posting any advice right now but I have just been so stressed with things lately. Not only with school but thinking about my ex. It just bothers me that he never cared, just lied to me and led me along. That's why I needed to leave and sort my life out. I can't help but think about it. Even though I have someone else interested in me now I can't stop thinking about the past. I know I need to let it go but it's just so hard. I guess a hug will help me now and maybe some advice about letting go and to stop thinking about the past.


Stay busy! Never good for your mind to be a slave to thoughts of him, so keep it occupied with other stuff.
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#83
Quote by T00DEEPBLUE
I can't be put in another class because i'm in uni. My group has been decided and the university is already understaffed as it is. Everyones groups are on a rotar, so if i did move to another group, it would mean that i missed essential practicals that i couldn't do again.

I might try some online tutorials if i have to, but it isn't what i want. It would be easier to understand and be more relevent to my course if i learnt what to do in the labs like everyone else. It is unlikely that an online tutorial would teach me exactly what i needed to know with exactly the right scope of understanding.

The uni have a very strict rule to not move the report outside of the lab. They wouldn't allow me and if i did sneak it out, they would know about it. It is practical work too. Not somthing i can do in my flat on my own.

The best i can do is file a complaint and hope for the best, but even then, what would that achieve?

Everyone else in the class is experiencing the same trouble as you right? Could you try and get together and ask the University to do something about it, or ask the teacher to start writing stuff down?
Quote by Andrea55
Anyway, sorry I'm not posting any advice right now but I have just been so stressed with things lately. Not only with school but thinking about my ex. It just bothers me that he never cared, just lied to me and led me along. That's why I needed to leave and sort my life out. I can't help but think about it. Even though I have someone else interested in me now I can't stop thinking about the past. I know I need to let it go but it's just so hard. I guess a hug will help me now and maybe some advice about letting go and to stop thinking about the past.

There's nothing wrong with contemplating the past but you can't let what happened then rule over you now. If you don't put all you can into the present, you'll just end up regretting it in the future, and then the cycle will just continue.
Quote by kbabz22
This situation between me and this girl is that she is the first person to make me genuinly happy since my breakup with my ex and she doesn't feel the same way, it's hitting me pretty hard and all I wanted was a chance with her. But alas it's always the same old story. And the best thing about all of this is that if you were to rewind about 3 days I would have been the happiest person on earth. All this shit seems to have happened in just one weekend and I can't take it

Just give her some space for a while bro, I guarantee that she'll be happy to still be friends with you at least.

EDIT: ^It's all about consciously replacing your bruising with something else to give you the same rush, fail. It might not be any of the suggestions we gave you, but you've got to keep looking for it. BTW what happened to that guy who you thought was wanting for you to be his project?
Last edited by devourke at Nov 14, 2011,
#84
Quote by fail
Maybe you're right. But as I mentioned, I seem to get the satisfaction from doing it to myself specifically. There's just something about bashing myself up and seeing the results. Seeing as I'm pretty physically inactive though, perhaps I should see what some type of sport would do for me. Even though I hate sports and think they're really boring. Oh well


Well, you know, it can't hurt to give it a go. I mean, doing has really had a very positive effect on me. You may not get the same satisfaction out of it but if you're anything like me you'll become much more peaceful (outside of training of course >_> and not want to do that sort of thing anymore. Also, you know, it's a lot of fun

Not forcing you of course but i'd really recommend that over anything else. Team sports are meh, it's difficult to see yourself develop personally in them... but you know, different strokes.
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#85
Quote by devourke

Just give her some space for a while bro, I guarantee that she'll be happy to still be friends with you at least.

Just seems like everything is falling apart in my life right now and I'm getting more and more lonely with each day that goes by.. I hope things start to look up again soon
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#86
Sorry I have missed some of your guys post, I will try to get to them after class when I have a moment to sit down.
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#87
Quote by kbabz22
Just seems like everything is falling apart in my life right now and I'm getting more and more lonely with each day that goes by.. I hope things start to look up again soon

It'll all be ok bro. Just do some of the things you love and enjoy yourself until it blows over.
#88
Quote by Andrea55
Thanks Mac, Ziggy and behind-you.

Your kind words are too much that I ask for and it really helps. I'll make sure to take all of your advice. Thank you again.


No problem Andrea. I like helping people, and I especially like helping people who truly need it.
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#89
You're welcome, Andrea.

@devourke

Everyone's had problems with that guy. Nobody has acted on it yet. Frankly, i don't think they care. If i can get a hold of a few people in the group that do, i'll mention it to my tutor.
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#90
Quote by devourke
EDIT: ^It's all about consciously replacing your bruising with something else to give you the same rush, fail. It might not be any of the suggestions we gave you, but you've got to keep looking for it. BTW what happened to that guy who you thought was wanting for you to be his project?


Oh, he's eased off a bit since finding a new interest. "Nice guys" are so full of shit

Quote by isabiggles
Well, you know, it can't hurt to give it a go. I mean, doing has really had a very positive effect on me. You may not get the same satisfaction out of it but if you're anything like me you'll become much more peaceful (outside of training of course >_> and not want to do that sort of thing anymore. Also, you know, it's a lot of fun

Not forcing you of course but i'd really recommend that over anything else. Team sports are meh, it's difficult to see yourself develop personally in them... but you know, different strokes.


Can't hurt to try, I guess. I should probably start getting myself in shape for that kind of thing now...
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#91
Stressed. Check RT for issue. Could use hugs.

Happy new thread guys
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#92
Quote by T00DEEPBLUE
You're welcome, Andrea.

@devourke

Everyone's had problems with that guy. Nobody has acted on it yet. Frankly, i don't think they care. If i can get a hold of a few people in the group that do, i'll mention it to my tutor.

You should report back after you do that.
#93
@mtshark
Quote by mtshark
I'm stuck in a not so great situation... My girlfriend and I (16 and 18 respectively) have been dating for a little over a year. I'm her first boyfriend, and she is pretty into me, just a bit more than I would like. She's very affectionate and rather romantic. She also doesn't have the greatest family life, which puts a little more pressure on me than normal.

On the other hand, there is my mother who has taken note of some of this, and after voicing my concerns to her, has decided that we are too far into it. Ideally: she wants us to break up (even though she won't say it) but also realizes her needs. I love my girlfriend, and want the best for both of us, no matter what that means, but right now, I feel bringing this up would be like betraying her. Help?

Add/edit: This was all brought up again today when I asked my mom if I could go to my gf's counselor to voice some of my concerns for her in order to try to help out. (She's a rather emotionally unstable. My mom said that going would only "suck me in more" and that I shouldn't be looking for a long term relationship with a girl with her sort of problems.

Sounds like your mom is being a bit too involved if you ask me. IMO i think your relationship should be between you and your girl. Do what you think is right, and if that means a long term relationship, then go for it.
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#94
Mtshark, when I get home I will give some advice. I was in this same situation before. I am still in class and posted from my blackberry.

I am actually little worried about wielding class. I am sort of behind and there is only 3 weeks left of it. I thought I had more time but the semster is creeping to an end.
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#95
I forget what this thread is about....

but right now me and my gf of two years are going through a tough time....we might not make it much longer....and i am depressed about other stuff...i was kicked out of my smart kid school last year....and i ahte myself....can i has a hug?
I haz gotten gud
#96
@ApatheticMe

You can always has hugs
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#97
Quote by mtshark
I'm stuck in a not so great situation... My girlfriend and I (16 and 18 respectively) have been dating for a little over a year. I'm her first boyfriend, and she is pretty into me, just a bit more than I would like. She's very affectionate and rather romantic. She also doesn't have the greatest family life, which puts a little more pressure on me than normal.

On the other hand, there is my mother who has taken note of some of this, and after voicing my concerns to her, has decided that we are too far into it. Ideally: she wants us to break up (even though she won't say it) but also realizes her needs. I love my girlfriend, and want the best for both of us, no matter what that means, but right now, I feel bringing this up would be like betraying her. Help?

Add/edit: This was all brought up again today when I asked my mom if I could go to my gf's counselor to voice some of my concerns for her in order to try to help out. (She's a rather emotionally unstable. My mom said that going would only "suck me in more" and that I shouldn't be looking for a long term relationship with a girl with her sort of problems.


I have been in your situation before. Here is the deal on this. Your mother has right to be little concern here. She is just looking out for your best interest. That's doesn't matter here though. Neither does your girlfriend. What matters here is you and how it is affecting you. If you can stay level head,calm, and collected then you can handle this relationship. If you can't and if it starting affected your everyday affairs and how you react then it's time to walk away. You aren't married and not in a committed long term relationship. You can step away at any time remember that. If you can handle it and stay normal/sane then get it a shot. If you can't handle it walk away or be very cautionary when taking steps with her. If causing unnecessary grief, don't stay in it. Remember your own being comes first.
Quote by kbabz22
I got my mum pressuring me into getting a job but no where will even give me a ****in interview, I got my teacher telling me to spend more time in the computer labs out of lesson. My mind wont stop ****ing thinking about Cassie.

I don't have enough time to sort out all of these ****in problems and I can't talk to anyone about it because I'm afraid that if I do I'll just get called a freak by everyone and shunned

So instead everyday I go in, fake a smile throughout the day to keep the questions away, pretend to be happy, keep myself caffined up so I can actually pretend to be happy when I'm not

Im too scared to talk to anyone about this and the only other person I thought I could talk to about this stuff probably wont even want to talk to me anymore because I decided it would be a great ****in idea to ask her out on a date


So I ask of you hugging thread can you please help me

http://profile.ultimate-guitar.com/Blackwaterson89/blog/86797/
Also the more professional you look when you go apply for jobs and interviews, the better chance you have getting a job. When youre off the clock and hanging out be yourself, but look professional when you are doing a job.
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#98
Quote by T00DEEPBLUE



Have one on me, man.

I hope everything works out. I'm depressed too.

Quote by devourke
Y u feel self loathing?

Thanks

I just feel like I shouldn't even be alive. I'm a terrible musician, terrible writer, terrible friend, terrible son, terrible lover, can't get a job, can't go to Uni etc etc. I know I'm a waste of space, and I feel bad about feeling that. Barely anything can get me to smile anymore. I seem to say and do the opposite of what my brain tells my body. What's worse is that I'm not a loner. I've got friends and family who care about me, so I feel like I'm trapped here cause anything I do to hurt myself will hurt them 5x than it will me. And I love them a lot but at the same time I sometimes wish they'd go away and let me die in peace. I'm leaving to go to a place that I don't like before the end of November and I feel like I won't get to give a proper goodbye to my friends. I may hate on Dubai a lot, but all my friends are here which makes it 10x more important than any other place. Then there's the issue with my mom spending about $1000 to get my dad out on bail, a man who I loathe, and he gets out tomorrow. I can't even get booze in the house anymore because she'll start bitching about it. I feel like I felt at the start of this year, like everything's falling apart and I've got front seat tickets. I can't change anything but I can just watch as everyone makes huge decisions for me because I'm not "old enough" or "mature enough" to. Which is total bullshit, because if it weren't for me my mom and I would be on the streets. If it weren't for me she wouldn't have the cash to bail out that dipshit. But no, I can't be counted as an adult...and oh wait, I'm not really a ****ing child either?

Half the people around me are insane man.
#99
Quote by ali.guitarkid7
Thanks

I just feel like I shouldn't even be alive. I'm a terrible musician, terrible writer, terrible friend, terrible son, terrible lover, can't get a job, can't go to Uni etc etc. I know I'm a waste of space, and I feel bad about feeling that. Barely anything can get me to smile anymore. I seem to say and do the opposite of what my brain tells my body. What's worse is that I'm not a loner. I've got friends and family who care about me, so I feel like I'm trapped here cause anything I do to hurt myself will hurt them 5x than it will me. And I love them a lot but at the same time I sometimes wish they'd go away and let me die in peace. I'm leaving to go to a place that I don't like before the end of November and I feel like I won't get to give a proper goodbye to my friends. I may hate on Dubai a lot, but all my friends are here which makes it 10x more important than any other place. Then there's the issue with my mom spending about $1000 to get my dad out on bail, a man who I loathe, and he gets out tomorrow. I can't even get booze in the house anymore because she'll start bitching about it. I feel like I felt at the start of this year, like everything's falling apart and I've got front seat tickets. I can't change anything but I can just watch as everyone makes huge decisions for me because I'm not "old enough" or "mature enough" to. Which is total bullshit, because if it weren't for me my mom and I would be on the streets. If it weren't for me she wouldn't have the cash to bail out that dipshit. But no, I can't be counted as an adult...and oh wait, I'm not really a ****ing child either?

Half the people around me are insane man.

That sucks bro. Maybe you should just try being selfish and lean on your friends more more, because they obviously care enough that they won't mind. That sucks about your Mum as well, why was your Dad in jail? And where are you moving to?
#100
Quote by devourke
That sucks bro. Maybe you should just try being selfish and lean on your friends more more, because they obviously care enough that they won't mind. That sucks about your Mum as well, why was your Dad in jail? And where are you moving to?

Yeah I tried. My friend and I came up with this idea that I should crash at his place until a week after new year's. But his stepdad would never let me do that since he's got this whole "it's my house and he's not family" ideal. Which is only right, I have no business butting in there in the first place and he's only looking out for everyone. My dad was in jail over credit card debts, which he paid for by taking out credit card debts, rinse, repeat. Then he went ahead and borrowed money from a powerful family here (And he wasn't borrowing small amounts either, I think the grand total was something around $2 million...). So yeah, that'll get you a free room in jail anywhere.

We're moving to Syria.

EDIT: By the way, I'm sorry about being such a bummer at the start of the thread guys I don't mean to.
Last edited by ali.guitarkid7 at Nov 15, 2011,
#101
Quote by ali.guitarkid7
Yeah I tried. My friend and I came up with this idea that I should crash at his place until a week after new year's. But his stepdad would never let me do that since he's got this whole "it's my house and he's not family" ideal. Which is only right, I have no business butting in there in the first place and he's only looking out for everyone. My dad was in jail over credit card debts, which he paid for by taking out credit card debts, rinse, repeat. Then he went ahead and borrowed money from a powerful family here (And he wasn't borrowing small amounts either, I think the grand total was something around $2 million...). So yeah, that'll get you a free room in jail anywhere.

We're moving to Syria.

I guess his Step Dad is entitled to that, it still sucks though. At least you know your friend is looking out for you hard. I can't even fathom being $2mil in debt, how does that even happen? Are you a native to Dubai or were you originally from somewhere else?
#102
Quote by devourke
I guess his Step Dad is entitled to that, it still sucks though. At least you know your friend is looking out for you hard. I can't even fathom being $2mil in debt, how does that even happen? Are you a native to Dubai or were you originally from somewhere else?

Yeah it is quite a hefty debt. Nah I'm not a native to Dubai, none of this would happen if I was . I'm Egyptian.
#103
Quote by ali.guitarkid7
Yeah it is quite a hefty debt. Nah I'm not a native to Dubai, none of this would happen if I was . I'm Egyptian.

Do they treat natives different or smth?
#104
This is for anyone who self harms or feels like committing suicide. In the past year I have lost 5 people. One to suicide, and four were killed by a drunk driver. There hasn't been a day that's gone by that I have not thought of them. Everyone who reads this is loved. So, so much. Much more than you can comprehend. I wish there was a way I could accurately show you how much worse of a place it is when someone is gone. All your friends and family are devastated. Even people that don't even know you that hear about it on the news or from an announcement at school feel sad for you.
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#105
^ Really sorry to hear about your friends man. I can't even imagine how that would feel like.

Quote by devourke
Do they treat natives different or smth?

Yeah, free houses, free cars, free high ranking jobs etc.

Thanks for everything man. Feels good to type up or talk about things, helps get your head around it y'know? Thanks again
#107
Yaaaay! New hugging thread ! Love this place. Used to regular here. Hugs for all!


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#108
Quote by ali.guitarkid7
Yeah, free houses, free cars, free high ranking jobs etc.

Thanks for everything man. Feels good to type up or talk about things, helps get your head around it y'know? Thanks again

Yeah no worries bro, I don't think how lucky I am to be living in a country like New Zealand most of the time.
#109
Pit politics make me want to punch babies. This is not a feeling I like.
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#110
Quote by necrosis1193
Pit politics make me want to punch babies. This is not a feeling I like.

Pit Politics discussion, or the politics and popularity of the Pit?
#111
Both, though the former really is what has made me grow to hate the latter, which I had no issue with when I came in here.
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#113
I know, but it feels like whenever I try to make any semblance of a point, or any coherent argument, it gets replaced with a strawman, and statements are picked out of context as suits the other side. It's debating to win instead of debating to reach a mutual conclusion about the merits of both arguments.
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#114
You should try and avoid arguing with people you know are just going to argue to win instead of argue to learn. If you can during the arguments, just try and stop the arguing for a moment and then acknowledge what they have to say and ask them to acknowledge what you have to say. If they don't acknowledge it, then you're wasting your time.
#115
Quote by ali.guitarkid7
Thanks

I just feel like I shouldn't even be alive. I'm a terrible musician, terrible writer, terrible friend, terrible son, terrible lover, can't get a job, can't go to Uni etc etc. I know I'm a waste of space, and I feel bad about feeling that. Barely anything can get me to smile anymore. I seem to say and do the opposite of what my brain tells my body. What's worse is that I'm not a loner. I've got friends and family who care about me, so I feel like I'm trapped here cause anything I do to hurt myself will hurt them 5x than it will me. And I love them a lot but at the same time I sometimes wish they'd go away and let me die in peace. I'm leaving to go to a place that I don't like before the end of November and I feel like I won't get to give a proper goodbye to my friends. I may hate on Dubai a lot, but all my friends are here which makes it 10x more important than any other place. Then there's the issue with my mom spending about $1000 to get my dad out on bail, a man who I loathe, and he gets out tomorrow. I can't even get booze in the house anymore because she'll start bitching about it. I feel like I felt at the start of this year, like everything's falling apart and I've got front seat tickets. I can't change anything but I can just watch as everyone makes huge decisions for me because I'm not "old enough" or "mature enough" to. Which is total bullshit, because if it weren't for me my mom and I would be on the streets. If it weren't for me she wouldn't have the cash to bail out that dipshit. But no, I can't be counted as an adult...and oh wait, I'm not really a ****ing child either?

Half the people around me are insane man.


The bolded parts can all be changed man. Being a good musician is entirely possible if you just invest in it. Same with the other stuff. Write more and you'll be a better writer, treat your friends better and you'll be a good friend. I'm in the same boat as you, my guitar/piano skills are horrible (thats what self teaching gets me), i love writing but i only write in a journal (very therapeutic btw), and i mooch off my friends a lot and don't treat them like i should. That being said, I'm very happy because i know that I'll get better. I practice piano and guitar everyday and i try to write at least once a week.

You aren't a waste of space at all as long as you don't let yourself be.
Don't let yourself be a waste of space.


EDIT: Read the thing Blackwaterson89 wrote, it helps a lot. http://profile.ultimate-guitar.com/Blackwaterson89/blog/86797/
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Surprise, surprise they wouldn’t wannna watch
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Last edited by Tessalate at Nov 15, 2011,
#116
OMG! So a 2-liter pepsi bottle just literally exploded in my lap otw home from the CVS ! I could have died. DIED I SAY! Now I am pantsless and soda-less

God damn crazy soda bombs. Whats really sad is that I thought it was a gun shot at first ! Hopefully such failure will cheer some of you up. If not, here is some hugs for your woes
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#117
Quote by yellowfrizbee
OMG! So a 2-liter pepsi bottle just literally exploded in my lap otw home from the CVS ! I could have died. DIED I SAY! Now I am pantsless and soda-less

God damn crazy soda bombs. Whats really sad is that I thought it was a gun shot at first ! Hopefully such failure will cheer some of you up. If not, here is some hugs for your woes


Cheered me up I have an Oral French exam tomorrow and im getting stomach cramps right now. It's also 1 in the morning.

Thanks lol.

Edit: Fk this it's 1:30 in the morning, and i cant sleep cause of my stomach.
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Into the unmagnificent lives of adults


It's Tessa, not Tesse please.
Last edited by Tessalate at Nov 15, 2011,
#118
I feel like my world is closing in on me, I feel like I'm doomed to be forever doomed to be lost. I have no idea what I want to do in life. Right now I'm making no progress. This problem is compounded by the fact that I have found the girl of my dreams. We've been together for awhile now, but she is 2 and a half years older than me, and has a college degree. Right now she is in shitty job, but when she gets more experience she will be able to find a superb job. She is so far ahead of me... Right now I'm having anxiety attacks over this, I feel desperate to find my niche, but I can't. I have lost myself, I do not know where I fit in this world.

My girlfriends job is also another thing. It makes me angry what they're doing to her. She gets there at 10:30, (has to wake up at 7:00 because of the commute). She works from 10:30, gets off at 6:30 then they pile work on her when she gets home. She usually goes home, eats, and then goes back to work. She usually stops working at 3 AM. She doesn't even get a full nights sleep. She is paid on salary so those hours she works are not compensated. Now in order for her to get thanksgiving off she needs to work this Saturday. What this company is wrong and it's consuming my thoughts. I can't think of anything else.
#119
^ That sucks, man. You'll find your niche, you still have time to. Its not too late to find your purpose.

As for myself, i had a terrifying night.

I had a nightmare that was about how awful i felt when i was in unrequited love, which led me to do a lot of ****ed up things to myself and to others. I have been depressed ever since that happened 4 years ago, but life was its darkest in that time, when i acted upon dying every day from lonliness.

The nightmare was completly passive. I remember seeing the girl in the dream and how magical she made me feel when i first talked to her and then the feelings of joy were crushed forever when i found out that she was in a relationship.

I woke up and i could feel a sadness growing inside of me, hunting me down and feeding off everything my life means to me. I panicked. The darkness felt so aggressive and so fast. I could feel it breathing down my neck. I managed to supress it long enough to get help however. I talked to a good friend of mine who reminded me who is important to me in my life and it made my demons run.

But **** me, it was scary. I was in such a panic because i could imagine what it was going to make me do once it did get hold. I am so lucky that i had someone to talk to at that moment.

I'm still scared by it. What if it happens again out of nowhere and pulls me under? What am is supposed to do when that happens. When that has happened to me in the past, i feel so consumed that i can't even stand and any outcry for help would be prevented by my self-hatred. I would love to get help, but no. I would've simply hated myself too much.

I need a hug after that experience. its been a long time since i've felt somthing that morbid.
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#120
I would give you a hug IRL if I could. I could honestly use one myself.

I signed the papers to start off the process of going to Officer Training yesterday. Mum and Dad found out, and were incredibly pissed that I didn't call them. I'm 20 years old for god's sake, I can do what I want to, what I feel is right, or at least I should be able to, without having someone constantly quesitoning my every move and decision. I also don't need them making me feel like it's my fault for them being upset that I didn't call them about it. I'm in University ffs, I'm busy, I work a shit ton, a law degree isn't easy. I'm tired in the evenings.

I wouldn have thought that they'd be happy that I'm doing something worthwhile. But no, I'm doing something that I finally want to do, and haven't been pressured to do by them, and once again, they are making me feel inadequate. Not that it has changed much, I've grown up being inadequate. Proud my arse, they just want me to do what they want me to do. Yeah, that's me, Ben; the constant friend, gentleman, and inadequate git.
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