I haven't exactly felt the best about myself lately. I don't really know what's going on. I guess in middle school back in 2008 I was socially uneducated, and was completely unaware that some of the things I said/did were socially unacceptable. I was a huge asshole, and I am utterly disgusted by the kind of person I was back then. I would even go as far as saying I wasn't "all there".

But since 2009 started, I feel like I became normal, and haven't done anything completely dickish or embarrassing since. I feel like I'm a decently normal person now. But recently the memories of asshole things I've said/did are coming back to my mind and for some reason I can't stop obsessing over them, and it's literally making me hate myself. I feel like a bad person, even though I have completely changed since then.

Should things that I did years ago in middle school still be affecting my way of thinking now?
Don't let them bother you. You learned from your mistakes, now move on.
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Depends. But generally you should try to concentrate on what's happening now. The person you were in the past doesn't exist any more, so it shouldn't be important.
It's happened. Not much you can do about it, you are a completely different person now, so you should be thankful for that. I acted like an ass around that time too (i was 17-18), but at the time it seemed justified, plus i had some really good times too. Now i'm thankful that i'm more mature, and i like to think if i was put into similar situations as i was back then, i would act completely differently.

Think of that next time you are not allowed to laugh.
It's a difficult lesson to learn, especially the hard way. But it's an important warning for the future. When you hurt someone, they will heal. You are the one who has to live with the regret/embarrassment. I'm fairly certain the people I've hurt are over it/over me/perhaps don't remember me. But it always sticks with me. In that way anger/malice/indifference all ultimately punish themselves. If you stop calling your brother and he dies, he doesn't care. He's dead. It's your burden to shoulder. Something to think about when you're considering being rude, mean or standoffish.

In my experience, all you can really do is not do anything else from this point forward. Don't worry about the past because it's gone. You can't control it anymore. It's unreasonable to worry about something you can't control. Life is flux. You're not the same person, this isn't the same world it was then. Just let it go. Whenever it pops into your head, just go out of your way to do something nice for someone. Instant penance. Let that take your mind off of it.
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Don't worry, in middleschool I would wear ******ed tight pants and walk around with a boner all the time.

I don't know why.
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I think it's normal to hate your middleschool self. I certainly did. Pretty sure the best thing to do is to move on and make it clear you're a different person now, to yourself and the people who knew you then.
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Just learn to forgive yourself. No one you wronged probably remembers anything you did. Plus people you know in middle school/high school will not be in your life for long. I'm 22 and unless I go up north to visit some old friends, I never see or hear too much from the rest of the people from my class. All in all, don't worry too much about it cause the others aren't and haven't since it happened around 2008.
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