#1
Hello.



There were two months when I remembered how to smile,
but recent events have blurred my memory of that.
The dazing sun confines me to my deathbed,
dependent, humiliatingly force-fed,
turning my back and wishing you’d turn me back to you,
and blaming you when you don’t do what I want you to do.

There were two months when I realized I’d wasted two years
and, so, I sharply u-turned to restart anew.
The sunlight beamed life. I found beauty in blue,
in the sky and your eyes. Believed I’d undo
the regrets that haunted my head; it would give them a reason.
But instead of giving me a home, you simply gave me freedom.

You let me go on the hills and shouted “now run!”,
but I was never one to enjoy the wild outdoors.
My trembling legs made me forget how to walk.
I looked back and pleaded to be like before,
but you simply said “seize the day” and then turned your back;
left me gazing at trees and fearing what danger lies ahead.
#2
"turning my back and wishing you’d turn me back to you,
and blaming you when you don’t do what I want you to do."

A bit you-y for me.

The next two stanzas were much better executed.

<3
マリ「しあわっせはーあるいってこないだーからあるいってゆっくんだねーん 
いっちにっちいっぽみーかでさんぽ
 さーんぽすすんでにっほさっがるー 
じーんせいはっわんつー!ぱんち・・・


"Success is as dangerous as failure. Hope is as hollow as fear." - from Tao Te Ching

#3
the end rhyme in that second stanza. the first line of that second stanza. that is beautiful.

first stanza could do with being more of a slow build up to that, feels maybe disconnected, filler-y. "trembling legs" in the final, like startling a deer, the quoted speech jolts me from that, just don't think they add anything beyond what you've already said, though is that the pain in them?