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Apologies in advance for this being a lengthy post. (and for breaking a forum rule 1st time)

The song I'm asking for comments on is the titletrack from "Heartbreak & Hometruths". (Out late August) The reason being it was a labour, an exorcism & a pleasure to do.

The music was originally an instrumental in the Zep ballad tradition, so the music was torturous to get right but is so melodic & haunting it became a labour.

The words are a different thing. I was married for a long time, and cutting a long story short, caught my ex with my cousin. I've lived alone for 5 years. In that time I had a relationship with a catwalk model who had come out of a physically abusive relationship. We connected as soul mates immediately. 12 months later it became apparent that models come with habits that the rest of us don't usually have. Plus she relied heavily on booze to get her through her marriage & became addicted.

The relationship had to end due to her needing full time help before her addictions killed her. For me I had for the first time let someone get close to me & had to put "the mask" back on & cope with being me again. Finally there's someone on the horizon that's making things better & is inspiring me to write again. So with all that said...

Hey look at you
And all that you've been through
Still practically perfect in everything you do
Smiles to all around
Never slips the crown
Nobody sees how much life can get you down
there's things you do, to see you through, to help to ease the pain
but far to soon tomorrow comes and it begins again
But now it's all behind
Almost in another time
the confidence, the eloquence so pure no one believed
the hidden lows, you took the blows, the family's deceived
Now you're free of it
Now your soul can sing

Put the mask on to hide the truth
Put your fingers in the holes to feel the proof
Learnt the hard way that the black & blue bruise
Hurts less than heartbreak & hometruths

And then there's me
Not all that I can be
Eyes see a tatooed reality
What am I looking for
Is it what I had before
Never content always wanting more & more
The vanity, insanities you suffer for your art
the affection, rejections that cut you to the heart
Devastated by the pain
Giving up on everything
Shock therapy, infidelity, always running rife
You call me cold, expose my soul and devastate my life
You put your fingers in my heart
and tore the f*****g thing apart

Put the mask on to hide the truth
Put your fingers in the holes to feel the proof
Learnt the hard way that the black & blue bruise
Hurts less than heartbreak & hometruths


And have I found my dream
Is everything as it seems
Or will it just fray & come apart at the seams
At least I'm willing to try
and build another life
finally trusting & letting feeling fly
so on we go, and no one knows, we keep up the pretense
and innocence & arrogance was such a poor defence
Now a new love has begun
Start to look towards the sun
The screams & shouts, the live withouts, the love that died too soon
Never meant to last, underline the past & let this new love bloom
Finally realise myself
No more walking on egg shells

Put the mask on to hide the truth
Put your fingers in the holes to feel the proof
Learnt the hard way that the black & blue bruise
Hurts less than heartbreak & hometruths