#1
keeps touching a nerve
exposed and twitching
you like to push buttons
and it hurts sometimes
I often watch for hours
while you have your way
scraping fingernails
over old wounds

I never ask you why
but like to witness
this quest for pain
deeply imbedded in you
like a reaction from a burn
not thought just a movement
you do so naturally

you like me to try sometimes
but i can't do it myself
cos it hurts too much
when I taunt myself
at least you like to try
so i feel included.