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Thoughts and memories of the girl next door. It's newer so it's not quite up to scratch. I need to put something more into it, but I'm not sure myself.

I lay in my driveway
Prone and unlovely
With unwanted relation
Bittersweet contemplation
(I never wanted you
I never wished for you)

You said I was fooled
Played me like Glenn Gould
Thought I felt elation
Ripened anticipation
(I never wanted you
I never wished for you)

There was fuel for fire
I looked away from us
A window pane, a selfless pain,
This basis of distrust
There was strange desire
For youth on the cusp
A winter shame, a springtime rain,
Now it’s gone to rust

I recall our pre-teens
We hid in the ravines
Once you couldn't find me
And I was strangely happy
(I never wanted you
I never wished for you)

Saw the sign to sell you
I had bought the untrue
Threw memories from pride
Fell apart I swear I tried
(I never wanted you
I never wished for you)

There was fuel for fire
I looked away from us
A window pane, a selfless pain,
This basis of distrust
There was strange desire
For youth just on the cusp
A winter shame, a springtime rain,
Now it’s gone to rust

Last year’s circumstance
And you never looked at me
Even though I never stopped
Thinking ‘bout our time fondly
You said goodbye with paper
So I didn’t know what to say
The moment that I would
You would simply look away

There was fuel for fire
I look away from us
I always wanted you
I always wished for you
You always look away…
You always look away…
You always look away…