#1
Hi.

I have a confession to make. I think I am clinically depressed. I don't know if thats the proper term, i only know it in my own language, but I think so.

The reason for why I think I am clinically depressed, and not just normal depressed, is coz my life is pretty good at the moment, objectively viewed.

I have something going with a nice girl. She's hot, she's nice, although I don't know her that well. I have a great band, we're starting to get knowned in my city. I have a great group of friends. I even have a friend who I can talk about everything with. Its a girl. After I broke up with my ex, I didn't really have anyone to talk to about personal stuff which I don't feel comfortable talking about to my guy friends.

So what makes me depressed? Well, I miss my ex, thats one thing. I think about her all the time, even though its 2 months since we broke up. Part of the reason for that is that she asked me if I wanted to get back together with her a couple of days ago, but I was depressed before that as well.

I wanna get back together with her, but at the same time I don't coz she's away on a foreign exchange student year, and she isn't getting back for another 8 months, and I remember how depressing it was being together with her the first 2 months that she was gone. I don't wanna get back to that.

I drink to the point of almost puking 2-3 times a week, and fill the rest of the days with a couple of beers a day. I smoke hash about once a month.

Sorry for the whine. I needed to let it out somewhere. This kinda **** is what I'd usually tell my ex while we were together, except I wouldn't have gotten myself in this situation without us breaking up.

So, I'm an alcoholic clinically depressed guy, and I've run out of places to hide. I guess life's problems has a way of reaching you wherever you run. Funny thing is that alcohol is what I thought would fix my problems.

Finally, I would just like to add that I'm not a stupid guy, as it might seem. I used to be praised for my math skills, my writing, I was good in sports and so on. But what good are all those things when you've got the psychological stability on par with a serial killer?

Thanks to anyone reading this far. I've actually come to prize these seldom moments of sobriety, lately. How wierd isn't that?

/end self-pity
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#2
Welcome to UG, you'll fit in just fine!

This is no place for sympathy
#3
Wow...^^ that guy is an ass.

That sucks to hear mate. You should prolly go to the doctors and pick up some Happy Pills. They are what has gotten me through tough times when my parents died. Good luck. I would also try to stop drinking because that just makes things worse. Known from experience.
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#4
Hehe, I don't want sympathy

I know whats in store for me in this thread, I actually like getting feedback like "Grow a pair". It actually inspires me to do so, if you can believe that.

Edit: Happy pills and alcohol is probably a bad mix, but thanks for the positive feedback
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#6
Dude, I'm doing a lot of the same things, but with Weed and Opium in addition to alcohol. Self-Destruction is rad!


I'm going to keep prescribing self-medication.
#9
Seriously, stop drinking, when your depressed, the drink takes a bigger hold of you and you do stupid things, believe me, I know, my friend was diagnosed with depression, hit the drink and killed herself.
Give up with the self destructive drinking behaviour.
Leave the ex ALONE!
Be happy you've got a girl atm.
Be happy you've got a home to go back to.

ALSO

Be happy your on a community full of the following:

Intelligent young & old males & females you can tell this to without the insults.
Stupid young males... with no wit and attempting a sense of humour.
The Bazzaah of China people who don't get the point that nobody likes them, haha.


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Your only an alcoholic when you go to meetings, other than that, it's just a social hobby, haha.
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#11
no doubt happy pills are needed. Lexapro rocks and you can easily come off of it in the future. also you should exercise for a couple of hours a day. that removes a tremendous amount stress which is probably what makes you depressed in the first part. i am very serious about the exercise part.
#12
Cut down on the drinking. See where that takes you first of all.
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#13
seriously dude, get it down in writing. people seem to take it so much more seriously then.i hope everything that makes you depressed sorts itself out in time my friend, sooner better then later
#14
Yeah, if you really want to change exercise and a doctor's visit are probably in order.


I don't really see why you'd want to change. Destruction breeds creation.
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sucks to hear that but i don´t think UG will be of any help at all...
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Hehe, I don't want sympathy

I know whats in store for me in this thread, I actually like getting feedback like "Grow a pair". It actually inspires me to do so, if you can believe that.

Edit: Happy pills and alcohol is probably a bad mix, but thanks for the positive feedback

Alcohol and any kind of depression is a bad mix, it makes it worse. Actually, it's a stupid idea to use any drugs if you feel that way to begin with..
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#18
Don't you have to be diagnosed as clinically depressed, to be clinically depressed?


Sound more like a case of anaclytic depression...

lol.
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First intelligent reply.

Seems that you have a problem.
Seek help with someone who can help you, and I don't mean a forum of 15 year old idiots.

This is not the end of your life; instead, cut the drinking, get help, get over it, and in a few years time you'll laugh about it. Really.
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#20
And play more video games. I swear to God, I can avoid taking medication by playing Mega Man. Gets me ego pumping.
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First intelligent reply.

Seems that you have a problem.
Seek help with someone who can help you, and I don't mean a forum of 15 year old idiots.

This is not the end of your life; instead, cut the drinking, get help, get over it, and in a few years time you'll laugh about it. Really.

im 17. and i try to help, not make silly jokes. so i find that offensive.

but fock it, thats society today isnt it