#1
Steps Away From Suicide

By Steve!


you think i'm on drugs
if i was it would have happened
sobriety increases the challenge
of such impulsive final thinking
where do you even get
such a preposterous idea
of something i show no sign of
i'm more of an oddity
just something you aren't used to
and your treatment is what leaves me

steps away from suicide
inside i have already died
dealing with you seven days
has destroyed me
in all my ways
doomed to act however you want
simply to avoid the pain
of constant verbal abuse
even with futility of use

standing in front of
another open window
two floors down onto
solid concrete
it won't happen
not without more mental prodding
which you'll inevitably be behind
or at least magnify to
its fullest potential
of ever increasing and deadly
proportions of a morbid magnitude
which you will become
ever more familiar with
at least if you see the error
in your immensly mistaken ways
otherwise the only thing i can see
is you being forever blinded
by your darkened light
leaving me

steps away from suicide
inside i have already died
dealing with you seven days
has destroyed me
in all my ways
doomed to act however you want
simply to avoid the pain
of constant verbal abuse
even with futility of use
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