#1
OK so me and my mom have been getting into arguments and stuff and she really doesn't like me. She is telling me she doesn't want me living with her and shes going as far as saying she wishes that I would get arrested for murder so she won't have to deal with me anymore. (lol). Her problem is that I don't have a job even though I've been looking although I have had no luck.
A little about myself:
-I started smoking marijuana and abusing other drugs at age 15.
-I dropped out of high school at age 16.
-I got a job at age 17. I worked there about 6 months and got kicked out of my mom's house for partying all the time.
-I moved into my dad's house and lived with him for about 2 months.
-I moved back in with my mom because of the negative impact on my mind living with my dad had (he lives basicly in the middle of the forest. I had no car or friends there and I was going crazy.)
-I continued partying and going to friends houses every day getting fucked up.
-I moved in with my sister who was going to college. I begin drinking heavily.
-I get a job for about 3 months and got fired because I went home to see my grandmother before she died. (I told my manager where I was going and why, but I came back 3 days later than I said I would. Balls.)
-I'm 18 now
-I move back in with my mom and keep doing the same stuff. I start doing heroin intravenously.
-I have a mental breakdown and almost killed my mom's boyfriend with a sledgehammer after eating 12 200mg seroquels.
-I go to the mental hospital for 2 weeks.
-I come out with the promise that I would try as hard as I could to be a productive and responsible person.
-I continue with the same stuff as always, partying and getting fucked up every day. I continue doing heroin. I shoot up every 3 days.
-I get a car and steal my best friends girlfriend. Me and her shoot up very often.
-I OD after shooting up a very large dose and mixing it with Methadone 40mg.
-Shit happens and she ODed. My good friend left then room while she was ODing because he didn't want to get in trouble with the law. I'm left to save her life. She comes back. It was a big wake up call [or it should have been].
-She quits H and I tell her I will too. Her house burns down. We cannot see each other any more. I start abusing H again.
-I get a job. I spend all my money on H.
-My family finds out I do it after I drink 2 5ths and shoot up a bunch of dope. I was so messed up I just laughed about it and told everyone. Oops..
-I go into work and about 10 minutes later 2 cops come in a handcuff me. I'm escorted out of my work (very embarrassing, I worked in a busy restaurant .) They take me to mental health to get evaluated. I find out my mom somehow got something that allowed her to have me involuntarily committed. I got as far as the evaluation and they let me go. My mom wont let me come home. I'm homeless for a day.
-My dad lets me live with him. I've stopped using Heroin. I'm going through mad withdrawals. 3 weeks later I get into a fight with my step mom because she is talking shit about my mom. I get kicked out. I'm homeless for 3 days.
-My mom lets me back in because she didn't want to see me homeless.
-It's been a month sense I've done H. I'm fiending but I won't touch that stuff. Green , white, alchy and benzos for me.

Ok so I really want to make things right with my mom but I don't really know how. I need some advice.. I'm looking for a job but there isn't really any opportunities around where I live walking distance. I have a car that I can use but it keeps overheating and I don't have the money to fix it. I'm 19 now and I really don't know how I can turn into a normal working person living on their own. I know drug use isn't cheap but honestly I haven't payed for any drugs in over 2 months. what should I do? what should I say to my mom to make her not hate me?
#4
That's a pretty tragic story, if it's not bull****.
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#7
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That's a pretty tragic story, if it's not bull****.

No it's not bull****. i really need some advice
#8
maybe ask yourself why you suck so hard at life?

btw, i dont even mean that as an insult or sarcastically. ask yourself. how the hell would we know?

edit: i actually read through your post. you are ****ing pathetic.
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#10
Stop being a dumbass.
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#12
u are pretty fail.
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#13
Ever heard of public transportation? It should be no problem if you can't find a job within a walking distance.

And even if there's no buses or anything, you can always cycle to your job.

Just keep looking for a job man, you'll get on your feet soon enough.
#14
go to a church...you dont need to believe in god...but they'll help you
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#15
I say it's bull****.

But if I'm wrong, there isn't really anything you can really do to turn your life around unless you get your GED.
You'll be ****ed without some sort of proof of education.
#16
Show her you've changed. Apply for a job, until you can start making enough to maybe rent an apartment. Save your money. Party in moderation. Stay away from heroin.
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#17
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Stop being a dumbass.
Kind of agreed there...

I don't want to sound like a jackass, but it sounds like everything unfortunate to happen can all be blamed on you and your inability to give up drugs.

My advice, try to stay clean(which it looks like you are), forget everything in the past and start a new.
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#18
****, that got deeper than i thought it would. I dunno, if you can honestly stay off the shit, and H is shit, then if you and your mom can see a counselor or something together, that would help gain some trust back.
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#19
clean yourself up. thats all you can do. lose the smack. take a look at what you're doing, and set some so goals for yourself. thats all the advice i can give man.
#20
My advice would be back off the drugs completely and try and hold down a job. Get stable...maybe come off the drugs one by one. And try not to constantly drink alcohol...it's acceptable in my book to drink if you don't do it every day, and aren't drinking enough to seriously damage your liver.

Sounds like you had alot of **** happen to you...some partially your fault, some that you couldn't have helped to prevent at all. Maybe get some psychiatric help because you seem to find it hard not to give in to temptation and get addicted easily.

Only willpower will get you out of where you are.

I have friends that do drugs and if they can handle it, it isn't as big a problem. You don't appear to be able to handle it.

Good luck man.
#21
i go by the rule of never touching manmade [or processed] drugs. EVER.

if you're struggling with the withdrawls and finding yourself tempted to go back to it, check into rehab. as 'last resorty' as it sounds, its the best way to go.

find a job [if possible] with flexible hours.

if not, just chill out and plan out what you're gonna do with your life. have some main goal or focus, because if you don't, then you're boned. you'll most likely be fine at first, but then get bored fast and be tempted to go back to H, which is a big no-no.
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#22
try your best to quit doin drugs try to find a job,
and show her that your turnin your life around.
i know how you feel, jsut dont pick up the heroine
dude.
and good luck!!
#23
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-I started smoking marijuana and abusing other drugs at age 15.
-I dropped out of high school at age 16.

this is when you failed.

see kids? dont be pathetic losers, or bad things will happen to you.
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#24
Talk to her. Tell her that your ready to change but you need her help. Get a job and make some money. Work on educating yourself and get a GED. If you ever find an opportunity to make it to collage take it.
Your not screwed. You can make it through this.

Just DO NOT get back on H.
#25
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I say it's bull****.

But if I'm wrong, there isn't really anything you can really do to turn your life around unless you get your GED.
You'll be ****ed without some sort of proof of education.

Yea I've got a GED . its still hard as hell to find a job. I could take the bus if I had enough for even bus fare.
#26
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what should I do? what should I say to my mom to make her not hate me?

Maybe your mom shouldn't have to deal with your stupid ass. You're 19 and old enough to be responsible. If you wanna party all the time, get your own place. I admit, I smoke several times a day, I drink more than on weekends and I do other drugs, but I prioritize. I don't get ****ed up before I go to work and I don't let people trash my apartment. If you wanna live with your mom, you're gonna have to go along with her rules. If she has a problem with you getting wrecked and trying to kill her boyfriend, maybe you should get the fuck out of her house.
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this is when you failed.

see kids? dont be pathetic losers, or bad things will happen to you.


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#28
You ****ing loser. I feel no sympathy for you whatsoever. You ****ed up your own life, and francly, I dont care. Maybe if you hadent wasted all of your life being a dumbass and instead doing something productive like GETTING A JOB! Then you wouldn't be in your position. If I was your mom I wouldn't have let you back in. And you started heavy drug use at 15? All I can say is... Go to hell you ****in' moron.
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Ok so I really want to make things right with my mom but I don't really know how. I need some advice.. I'm looking for a job but there isn't really any opportunities around where I live walking distance. I have a car that I can use but it keeps overheating and I don't have the money to fix it. I'm 19 now and I really don't know how I can turn into a normal working person living on their own. I know drug use isn't cheap but honestly I haven't payed for any drugs in over 2 months. what should I do? what should I say to my mom to make her not hate me?


I empathize and all, but what do you want us to tell you? Walk further if there's a nearby job, drive if there isn't. Save enough money till you have at least a few months worth of rent saved up, move to where work is convient, or fix your car once you have that cash. You want to build a relationship with your mom? Help her out with expenses if you decide to live with her once you are making money.

If I were you and really wanted to become normal, I'd probably live in the middle of the woods with my dad, where the temptation to **** up would be minimal, but that's me, not you. I'd also spend time taking a GED class, not because the GED is so valuable, but because it would give me something to work for and keep me busy for at least a few months. Once I had that I'd work on something else in my free time, again just so that I have a nice goal, and I don't feel like using hard drugs as much because I'm miserable and bored with my ****ty daily routine.

Decide what you want to do and take the time to do it and finish it. No one here, myself included, can give you a good plan because we just don't know you. And you'll have no reason to stick to a plan unless it's entirely your own anyway. I'll say chances are that if you feel like you're actually working toward something, though, you'll feel much more like "a normal working person living on their own"
#30
Well yeah that sounds pretty ****ed up right now. If that was me, i would do the following:

-Get a GED. It will give you some sense of self-worth and i dont think you can get very far with anything less.

-Trash all your junkie friends whole are into that ****. If you cleaned up im sure you can meet new people who would be just as chill

-Get some 3rd party support, a church or a group type thing where people can give you guidance, and motivation.


You have to want to change. Your mom should be the least of your worries, and im sure if you asked her to she would help you, but you have to do and listen to what she says
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#31
Rehab...couselors have the tools and resorces to help in all aspects of your life.
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#32
ok thanks it really doesn't bother me to get put down or anything anymore. I have a GED I've had jobs, the only reason I lost my last job is because I got sent to the mental hospital via cops coming in and cuffing me. I'm a hard worker when I have a job. It's just that there is no places around here that are hiring literally. I want a job. I'm off heroin. I don't want it any more, it's just another escape. I want to be independent and have my own place.
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