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#1
Pit, I'm done. That's it. Short and simple.

Nothing appeals to me anymore. Everything is so dull and boring. I don't feel like playing guitar, I don't feel like going out with friends, I don't feel like doing anything I used to love. It's all so... dull.

The girl I've been dating just told me that she's began a "serious" relationship with another guy.

I'm constantly harassed in school for every move I make. Nothing I can do ever makes anyone look on me positively.

I hate the prospect of talking to people in real time (not on message boards/text messaging), because they always end up hurting me. Always. They tell me everything that's wrong with me.

I'm constantly finding people who are better than me at anything. If I think I'm good at a video game, I'll go to the Dome (like a local arcade that has Xboxes and PS3s and stuff) and find someone better than me. If I think I'm having a good day on guitar, I'll go to a guitar store and find someone better than me. I torture myself like this, and I can't stop.

I have schizophrenia. I can't even tell what's real and what I've made up anymore. I come up with all these things that happened between me and people, and use them against myself to hurt myself. Everything hurts.

Everything hurts.

Everything hurts.

Peace, love, empathy.
Madness (I never knew how accurate that handle would be)

EDIT: Thanks everyone for your sympathy

I really didn't come looking for sympathy, I just thought I'd let the Pit get to know me better. I just needed to tell this to something that would talk back.

And I should've worded it better. I didn't mean to come across as seeming like I need to be the best at everything, I just meant that, no matter what I try to do, I always suck. Always. I've never won anything, I've never been better than anyone at anything. I can't look at anyone and think "I remember when I was like that." I'm always terrible at anything I try.
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#2
Sounds like someone needs a big hug.

*hugs*
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#4
k, bye

Edit: Now you can completely give up trying to impress people. It will never happen and you can just be yourself and eventually a couple people will understand you. Took years but that's what happened with me.
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#6
mhmm.....
Would a cookie make you feel better?
They always make me feel better when im down.
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#8
Yeah, I'm feeling the same way lately. The only thing I look forward to is this girl who doesn't want a boy friend and marching band.

My bands don't make me happy, friends are bullshit, and school doesn't appeal to me anymore.

Oh well, I guess just try to make yourself happy, don't worry about other people.
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#9
I just realized, that made me sound like a whiny emo bitch.

I'm sorry
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#10
the pit is not a good a place to look for sympathy
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#11
i'm done too...


eating lunch i mean...
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#12
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the pit is not a good a place to look for sympathy

I know, I've been here more than a year.

I just figured I'd let the Pit get to know me a little better.
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#13
no matter what, there's always someone better.


i think you should get used to it..
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#14
i feel a UG PIT group hug coming on.
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#15
Aha! You have schizophrenia! That means you're a bad person, and you're ugly!

(Sarcasm )
#16
see you next week /wave


PS: was this suppose to be a suicide note? He never said he was going to kill himself just said he was done. Done with the pit, done with life, done with wanking, or what?

Have to agree with you on everything being boring though. At least for me it is just a fact of life, wish it wasn't sometimes but life is 95% or more of boring with a few brief moments of fun / excitement.
#17
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I just realized, that made me sound like a whiny emo bitch.

I'm sorry

its all right man we all have tough times if you need anything man feel free to message me
#19
Be yourself, people will respect you for it.

Pay no attention to people in guitar center, they may have better playing skills but least you aren't a show off.

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#20
Hey...I notice alot of emotion in that post. Take what you feel and write a song or something. You felt so obliged to tell the pit, so tell the world.

Only kiddin about the emo part

But seriously, writing songs helps me, even if they turn out to suck.
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#21
Yeah, I totally feel your pain. I know full-well exactly what your going through.


Don't you HATE it when people say that? hah.
#22
could it be that your just going through a rough patch

dude, everyone feels like this some of the time. talk to someone
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#23
Accentuate the positives and eliminate the negatives in your life. It will make your life better.
#24
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PS: was this suppose to be a suicide note? He never said he was going to kill himself just said he was done. Done with the pit, done with life, done with wanking, or what?


Im wondering the same thing.
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#25
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its all right man we all have tough times if you need anything man feel free to message me


Sympathy in the Pit???

You're now my favorite monkey.
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#26
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I know, I've been here more than a year.

I just figured I'd let the Pit get to know me a little better.


its cool, and the part about your girlfriend really sucks. everyone has low points in life, you just hit one. the good part is, you probly cant get much lower
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#30
things'll get better .. But I guess you'll have to make an effort for it
everybody has to go true this shit from time to time, and we all make it


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#31
Some wise UG member (are there others? DON'T even think of answering that you guys!!!) once said: "Did you just ask the pit for sympathy? That's the same as searching your ass for gold!" or something like that.
But let's prove him wrong.
Whining isn't all that bad. You should be allowed to once in a while.
Right now, you sound like a guy that needs a cookie and a hug. After that, you're gonna have to think. Be careful though, thinking is a dangerous thing. That's why you should DEFINATELY include a soft cuddly pink little bunny in your thoughts! And a cupcake!
And don't think too long. Exchange thinking with doing random stuff. Try sports, misschief, anything
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#32
Dude i know exactly how you feel. The best advice I can give is to actually try to be happy. Don't let people who harass you really bug you. I get harassed everyday for stuff. I used to be depressed, but I just got used to it if that makes sense.
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#34
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Accentuate the positives and eliminate the negatives in your life. It will make your life better.




Yea...and latch on to the affirmative, don't mess with Mister In-Between

Haha...haven't heard that in a long time
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#35
Face it, the world doesn't care. Fix up your life.



Now...
Go cry somewhere else.
I will soon perish from this lethal injection called love.
#37
looks like someone needs a prescription of more cowbell... in this case, zoloft
I see no sign of fortress.
#38
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I just realized, that made me sound like a whiny emo bitch.

I'm sorry

*Pats back*

There will always be someone better than you at stuff like gaming and playing guitar, it's true for everyone. The trick is not too care. I know this is a hard switch to make. Maybe you could turn this jealousy (probably not the right word) into something positive. If you see someone in a music store playing really beautiful music ask them to give you a tip or something.

Also, the people you hang around with sound like pricks. Is there a reason why they act like that?