Howard Jones Reveals Specific Reasons Behind Leaving Killswitch Engage

"Everything was wrong with me," stresses the singer.

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Howard Jones has revealed the reasons that he left Killswitch Engage. As the singer told Revolver (via Metal Injection), anxiety issues, rather than anything more salacious, were a catalyst for his departure:

"There was nothing wrong with Killswitch or the relationship. Everything was wrong with me. I was going insane. It never occurred to me to get help. For years, I just tried to fight through it and I was driving those guys berserk. My anxiety was building and building, and near the end, there were a lot of times I'd sit in the back of the bus or lay in my bunk for hours on end without speaking to anyone. Even the idea of having to do a meet and greet freaked me out."

As Jones notes, his anxiety issues resulted in him having a complete mental breakdown:

"I physically and mentally couldn't get onstage. I had a complete mental breakdown. We were in Florida, and over the few days of taking the drive down there, I felt like I was suffering this critical pain. Just the thought of going out in front of people made me panic. I couldn't do it."

When asked about rumors that he had left Killswitch Engage because he got a porn star pregnant, Jones responded:

"I have no comment. I know nothing of what you're talking about."

The singer also discussed his issues with Diabetes, noting that he has managed to regulate his blood sugar levels through exercise and proper diet:

"I'm doing fantastic now - better than I have in years. The diabetes is completely under control. I'm doing lots of exercise and eating better than ever and my blood sugar has basically regulated itself. My doctor couldn't believe it."

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    He sounds like he knew it was more him than the rest of the guys. At least it wasn't 'They didn't understand man' and him being in denial about stuff. I guess I'd like to hear the other guys version of events because you never know with stuff like this.
    I know anxiety first hand and its horrid, I hope he finds a way through this and he can continue his career as an artist, he's an incredible singer/performer.
    LOL at diabetes being capitalized and bolded. Its srs business, guys.
    Well if your blood sugar levels are all messed up it makes your feel like total crap and depressed. It's not that funny
    Everyone was saying he left because of diabetes, but as a diabetic I have to say it won't give you any problems as long as you don't overdo anything that would be bad for anyone.
    Wait, he knocked up a porn star?
    I have no comment. I know nothing of what you're talking about.
    Your avatar is awesome. I actually pictured Howard Jones doing that same gesture to the guy interviewing him, exactly the way Ben Stiller did it on Happy Gilmore lol
    Is he coping with anxiety better now? I mean the guy is in another band now
    If a man with anxiety issues can go up on stage and sing, then it goes to show that others can beat stage fright and perform. It's too bad what happened, but I think what he managed to do for so long is impressive.