Marilyn Manson Was Close To Suicide

Marilyn Manson's life was in turmoil, the idea that he didn't have somebody to hold hands with through hell was too much to handle.

Marilyn Manson Was Close To Suicide
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There was a point awhile ago but before news of the dissolution of his marriage to Dita Von Teese went public in late January that Marilyn Manson realized he just didn't want to be alive anymore, according to MTV News report. His life was in turmoil, he had hit a wall creatively, and the idea that he didn't have somebody to hold hands with through hell was too much to handle. I was clearly at the point where I was ready to give up, and it wasn't that I didn't have the motivation to it was almost as if I couldn't bring myself to make a conclusion, Manson explained. I can look back on it now like it was a different person, and I refuse to ever get to that place again. But it was mostly because I didn't feel that I had someone who was going to walk with me through the horrible reality that we live in. Did I want to kill myself? Yes. Did I come close to doing that? More than I'd like to think. The only thing I can say about it is, I feel like maybe I wasn't strong enough to make that choice. I guess I was just more lost than anything. I didn't have anything to attach myself to. I didn't have any emotions or fears nothing to have hope for. There's a big difference, I discovered, between wanting to die and not wanting to live, he continued. When you want to die, you at least have a goal. When you don't want to live, you're really just empty. That's the point I was at before I was able to make 'Eat Me, Drink Me' . Manson said he needed to find reasons to want to live, and in time, did so in actress Evan Rachel Wood, who eventually became his girlfriend. Finding someone who's willing to drown with you creates a situation where you no longer want to drown, he said. It was meeting Wood, he said, that helped him salvage his muse and finish Eat Me, Drink Me. He recorded the effort which follows 2003's The Golden Age of Grotesque, leaked online Tuesday and hits stores June 5 in a Hollywood studio with guitarist/bassist Tim Skold. It would be an understatement to say this record saved me, Manson said. This record was my salvation. This was my rebirth. This was me realizing who I am, so this is the most important record I've ever made, in every possible way. Read more at BigOldAmp.com.

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    thanx_bonham
    wow this whole report was just a little out of the blue. but, what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.
    thrash64
    EmancipatedSoul wrote: Marilyn Manson does not care about selling records.
    haha. you're funny.
    nebraskan
    I don't see why people respect him, it's not hard to find the center of our society (religion) and then just do the opposite so kids can think they're accomplishing something by listeing to him. Sure, some of his songs are catchy, but it's not hard to do what he's done: Someone could go to India and talk shit about their religion and how it's false and they would be his equivalent. Besides, who's someone who dressed like a girl, had a girl's name and wore makeup? Manson got that all from Cooper. He is given so much more respect than he deserves because of this, and he's been seen as a much more intelligent person than he really is. But I am kind of glad that he didn't kill himself because then I couldn't make fun of him, because even if the human being deserves little respect alive, it doesn't mean they should be made fun of in death.
    POWERMETAL!
    i don't like how it turns out that the music i don't like has ppl that try and fail to kill themselves, while the music i love has ppl that die in tragic accidents,ie. cliff burton, randy rhoads, criss oliva. and many more i never got the chance to hear from i'm sure. (not cobain he commited suicide so it wasn't a tragic accident and also he wasn't a very good musician in my oppinion.) as for those others, alexi (children of bodom), manson, the list goes on all through "crappy" (once again, my oppinion, i get to speak it. for now..) music...
    sictree
    I wasnt planning on purchasing his album until I just read this! He would have turned to another kurt if he went through with suicide. woopty! Lucky hes not!
    El_Bozo
    POWERMETAL!: I'm really stunned that you didn't mentin Dimebag or Jimi (chokin on your own vomit IS an accident. Maybe not so epic, but still grips the heart) i_am_metalhead: God is also known as Anti-Satan, the one which is worshipped by mainstreamers Now back to the subject, I think it's Cool that Manson got back into normal psychical shape... I don't LOVE his music, or his style, but few tracks are good to listen.
    jerrytwilight
    I love his music but crying over a woman is stupid. There is always some dumb ***** who is ready to **** him- I mean his money.I am glad that he got over it though. Now we can listen to more great music.
    i_am_metalhead
    POWERMETAL! wrote: i don't like how it turns out that the music i don't like has ppl that try and fail to kill themselves, while the music i love has ppl that die in tragic accidents,ie. cliff burton, randy rhoads, criss oliva. and many more i never got the chance to hear from i'm sure. (not cobain he commited suicide so it wasn't a tragic accident and also he wasn't a very good musician in my oppinion.) as for those others, alexi (children of bodom), manson, the list goes on all through "crappy" (once again, my oppinion, i get to speak it. for now..) music...
    It never said that he tried to kill himself. He said he wanted to die. And how dare you say that Children of Bodom produces crappy music!? *Pours gasoline on you and sets you ablaze* You may not like their music but they are some of the most talented musicians out there today! And Kurt didnt commit suicide - he overdosed on heroine and then was shot by someone else to make it appear as if it were suicide. I'm not jumping on the bandwagon and saying it was Courtney Love but he did not shoot himself.
    Musian wrote: There's nothing wrong with saying that someone, even the Anti-Christ Superstar, needs God.
    Who is this "God" fella you speak of?
    SURFraptor7
    Musian : There's nothing wrong with saying that someone, even the Anti-Christ Superstar, needs God.
    +1
    _sam_
    glad hes stil alive...though it would have been interesting if he did...ha i wonder if he will be like the rollin stones and never stop. hope so!
    Covin
    Kurtsmyhero06 wrote: is anyone really surprised manson wanted to kill himself? lol
    Lol, i was kind of wondering about that as well...
    MindDecay
    Dude Manson would go that far to kill himself His life has alway been crappy from the very point of his birth. Im sure if you had the life he has had you would have made the same choice he had but maybe you would ave actually killed yourself. Who knows? I'm just glad Manson did what was right and is now still alive. Manson is my idle and will always be and life without you would be nothing ike it is right now =]. He's wrote great music, he has a great voice, great talent, and it would be a shame to see all of that talent go to waste. Glad you did the right thing Brian. Good job
    i_am_metalhead
    TheFallen1328 wrote: Zomboo : Please go all the way next time and kill yourself. 0/10 songwriting you would wish someone death because you dislike the music they make??
    +1 All of you people sicken me. You say that since he is "bad ass" or whatever that he should have just gone ahead and killed himself... that he's a pussy for not doing it!?? Celebrities in this genre never claim to be anything. Its YOU, the listeners, who make them out as trying to be "bad ass" or "hardcore" or whatever. Marilyn Manson is a real person with real emotions and real feelings. Fuck all of you who are too ignorant and narrow minded to realize this. I never really got into Manson, but I don't dislike his music nor do I hold any grudge against the man for doing the things he's done over the years - he's an entertainer, he does those things to help make our lives more enjoyable. I'm glad he's okay now!
    TheFallen1328
    Zomboo : Please go all the way next time and kill yourself. 0/10 songwriting you would wish someone death because you dislike the music they make??
    Bored to Tears
    Yeah, I don't like his music either, but it was said up there that he is a very wise man. I don't agree with his sense of fashion, but I do agree that he is an intelligent man. I respect him for that.
    DaBlackE
    Wow, all I gotta say is "WAAHHH!! I'm a rock star with millions of dollars & I wanted kill myself WAAHH!!" I thought this story was better when I read it on WhoGivesAShit?.com
    empathy_fails
    lmao what an attention seeking moron, your rich! as if u would contemplate killing yourself over someone that probably married u for the money anyway
    JoeWorpek
    jagstangkc wrote: sowhat360 wrote: the dude needs to suck it up and get over it. happens to everyone. he, more than most, should be able to deal with it better since he is a rock star and theres people lined up to be with him. plus, is it any mystery this guy's whacked out? Mr. Manson your first album was good, but shock rock is dead pal. just make good music. what is with you guys? you don't understand anything. yes, it does happen to everyone, but it doesn't make it easier to pull through because he's a rockstar, if anything it makes it harder. he's had to go through all of this with jackasses like you criticizing him every step of the way. think about what you're doing, would you be able to deal with all of this stuff he's going through with pieces of shit like your self giving him shit for being human??? probably not. he may have people lined up to be with him, but that doesn't make him hurt any less. how old are you, 12, 13??? apparently you've never been through anything like this, grow up...
    I must agree, Money doesn't make a person immortal. No matter how materialistic u are.
    nebraskan
    ThE cAnDyMaN wrote: god, just sing your death metal and dont start whinging cos you hate life manson
    Jesus, you really know nothing about him at all if you call him metal, death metal nonetheless. He's pop-shock rock/industrial (yeah, I said pop, u wanna fight?)
    sk8erdude137
    jagstangkc wrote: bodom0420 wrote: whatever Marilyn Manson is a puss. If hes so bad ass then whys he whining over a piece off ass. He's a poser. Why do all these famous people commit suicide, if my band was all big and I had hella money I would definetaly not be worried about one piece of ass and be whining about killing myself. WHAT A FAG! you're an idiot, dita wasn't just a 'piece of ass' and neither is evan. he's going through emotions that everyone has, and if they don't, then they're faking it. besides, the money has nothing to do with his emotions, having all the money in the world doesn't make you less sad, or less prone to having your heart broken, you've got a lot to learn, kid...
    I agree...Some chicks are improtant and what Dita did was wrong...and its not easy to get over something like that so fast
    Twiggy81R
    I just want to say that the more the I listen to "Eat Me, Drink Me" (yes I downloaded it and I will purchase it because I am a huge Manson fan) the more it grows on me. It's the type of album you will turn to when you lose something; when you feel alone; when you want to create or destroy. A brilliant work of art by him. Thank you, Brian, for making real music from the heart. In fact, I'm going to buy both the limited and basic cd.
    skrage
    i've never posted before, but after reading through these comments, i have too. give manson a break would ya. imagine YOU were him, if this is difficult for you then don't, but proceed in shutting up. the man, he is only a man, has dedicated his life to entertaining us and creating art of his own personal expressions. so he made some money and became a rock star. now all the people who he talks to are yes-men. people who want his approval(or maybe money) so they follow him tell him everything he wants to hear. so when he finds someone beautiful and willing to be honest with him and challenge his life abit, he falls in love. life is great at this point, anyone who has been in love can tell you that. then he gets his heart ripped out or whatever happened between him and dita, and falls into a pit of depression. i personally have been in his shoes before and contemplated not living. i'm still here though and this is why you should all shut up. this human being goes through one of the most difficult human emotions to lose (something money can't actually fix), and you call him a fake, a phoney, a money greedy freak. maybe he told us this story not to sell records, maybe he knew that alot of teenaged, and now midle aged people as well, listen to his music and watch his actions, so he decided to help those who feel similar by showing them that everyone gets down and out, but you've gotta fight to find reasons not to end it. you can't make music thats so angry and raw and to the point withoput having emotions and feelings run through your body. maybe you all have your heads too far up your a$$e$ to think about that. but not all of you. at least i hope not.
    hxcguitarist
    Just to add to the reality check for Bodom0420, Have you ever been in love? Doesn't sound like it...Have you ever been depressed? It's not something you just get over, even if you have everything in the world and nothing seems wrong to everyone else, there are things that go on behind the scenes that aren't so great and depending on how you handle that, it can get bottled up inside and those things are always on your mind and you can't sleep, you can't eat, and you feel like you don't wanna live, which according to Manson (and I totally agree with) means that you feel empty...like no one cares, like no one wants you around, and that hurts. Point being, don't say sh*t that you can't back up and you have no idea what you're really talking about, leave the talking to the people who have been there and know what it's like.
    war666child
    how do you know he doesn't want to sell a shit load of records and take your money?.. did he say that he loves his fans more then money? if he is suicidal he could care less for his fans... well if he did went suicide, that would be one less annoying person in the world..... Manson is just a drama queen.. he'd do anything to have attention... (wanna be anti-chirst)
    spite 666
    i agree with skrage and hxcguitarist most of the people that say bad things about manson have probably never experience neither love or depression, so they should go learn something about what they are saying before they say it. I respect manson soo much and i love his music and his new album is my favourite yet. im glad hes still around
    Harmonius
    Pretty cool. I'm not a fan of his music (more a fan of John5) but I appreciate Manson. He's a very intelligent person and i've seen him upfront. He's not 3 quaters of what people think he is. He's totally different.
    jagstangkc
    sowhat360 wrote: the dude needs to suck it up and get over it. happens to everyone. he, more than most, should be able to deal with it better since he is a rock star and theres people lined up to be with him. plus, is it any mystery this guy's whacked out? Mr. Manson your first album was good, but shock rock is dead pal. just make good music.
    what is with you guys? you don't understand anything. yes, it does happen to everyone, but it doesn't make it easier to pull through because he's a rockstar, if anything it makes it harder. he's had to go through all of this with jackasses like you criticizing him every step of the way. think about what you're doing, would you be able to deal with all of this stuff he's going through with pieces of shit like your self giving him shit for being human??? probably not. he may have people lined up to be with him, but that doesn't make him hurt any less. how old are you, 12, 13??? apparently you've never been through anything like this, grow up...
    sowhat360
    the dude needs to suck it up and get over it. happens to everyone. he, more than most, should be able to deal with it better since he is a rock star and theres people lined up to be with him. plus, is it any mystery this guy's whacked out? Mr. Manson your first album was good, but shock rock is dead pal. just make good music.
    jagstangkc
    El_Bozo wrote: POWERMETAL!: I'm really stunned that you didn't mentin Dimebag or Jimi (chokin on your own vomit IS an accident. Maybe not so epic, but still grips the heart)
    what about Bon Scott from AC/DC, or John Lennon??
    Slackerbitch
    I actually find it very funny that so many people are talking shit about Manson, while it's obvious they don't know a thing about him. It's like saying you hate a movie you haven't seen. Seriously every Manson hater, I recommend you read his autobiography, before you open your mouth and let others know why you hate him so much. Don't form opinions without reasons. I love pretty much all the music they've released so far, and I respect Manson as a person, but I'm totally OK if you don't. However stating that Manson's full of shit without knowing even a tiny bit about him only makes you the one who's full oh shit. Read his book, and you'll see he is really just like you, a person with emotions and feelings of confusion. It's the most personal autobiography I have ever read. If after reading it you still feel he's an *****, then go ahead, but at least now you have the knowledge to explain why. Thank you.
    Ahlihsah
    I second Slakerbitch. Not only because I wanted to type out his/her name, but I've also read his autobiography and agree with everything they say.
    Musian
    KO guitarist wrote: ATLBraves2014 wrote: He needs God unless your kidding and trying to get a laugh (and failed miserably) or you COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY RETARDED
    Or someone has a completely reasonable concern for another person. There's nothing wrong with saying that someone, even the Anti-Christ Superstar, needs God.
    Rockon914
    silent caution wrote: i used to listen to manson...before i liked music
    haha nice one
    EmancipatedSoul
    *sigh* seriously... I personally am a big Manson fan, so I would like to back him up... The problem is how. I think all of you are just ignorent and close-minded. If you knew Marilyn Manson, at least knew SOMETHING about him, then you would know that this is NOT something he would do to
    s/ash wrote: Just another gimick to sell some records, like when he was a girl or something in that music video
    ... Marilyn Manson does not care about selling records. The point of him is to end all judgement, and he does not care whether you hate him or love him. As long as you hear him. Read his autobiography or look up on him before making such bullsh|t accusations and retarded things. He changes his genre a lot, because doing the same thing over and over again loses his interest. If you don't like what he is doing, then don't like it, and don't listen to it. Pleas to go back to the Original are bullsh|t because then you just can't accept the new, you live in a Box, in a Cage, unable to take in the new and deal with it... Seriously... This is supposed to be about what influenced him on his new album... What point he came accross and is trying to express... The fact that he almost commited suicide is a connotation, a mere connotation, albeit an important one... Thats my personal view i suppose... Glad he is better and can't wait for the new album.
    jagstangkc
    bodom0420 wrote: whatever Marilyn Manson is a puss. If hes so bad ass then whys he whining over a piece off ass. He's a poser. Why do all these famous people commit suicide, if my band was all big and I had hella money I would definetaly not be worried about one piece of ass and be whining about killing myself. WHAT A FAG!
    you're an idiot, dita wasn't just a 'piece of ass' and neither is evan. he's going through emotions that everyone has, and if they don't, then they're faking it. besides, the money has nothing to do with his emotions, having all the money in the world doesn't make you less sad, or less prone to having your heart broken, you've got a lot to learn, kid...