Classic Rock magazine is reporting that Papa Roach front man Jacoby Shaddix had contemplated suicide after the breakdown of his marriage, but decided against it at the last minute. In an interview with Metal Hammer, the singer revealed just how close he came to killing himself:
"I went to Sausalito to hang myself. I was in a f--king place, man. The booze, my lifestyle, this woman I'd been with since I was 16 I've never been that f--king broken. I was seriously going to finish it."
He cites that his drink problem, and the end of a 20 year relationship with his spouse had led him down a dark path.
"There was a point where she wanted to experience life without me... That was the moment I feared in life the most."
Shaddix decided against it though, after he realized he couldn't face "that last conversation with your family on the phone."
"Suicide that's the most selfish act. I decided I had to endure the pain I was going through. I f--king wrote a song instead."
The song, "Before I Die", appears on the band's upcoming seventh album, "The Connection". And, according to Shaddix, it took some convincing from his fellow bandmates before he was ready to use it:
"They were like, You've got to do that. Every time we make records you're always brutally honest about what you're going through."
In a recent interview with Loudwire, Shaddix explained the meaning of the upcoming album's title:
"What 'The Connection' means to us it's our connection to the music, the connection from fan to fan. It's like when Facebook fans start to get to know each other, they come to shows and meet each other and make friends. The connection Papa Roach makes is bigger than us sitting in a room jamming. We're just the facilitators for that."
"The Connection" is released on October 1st.