Rare Kurt Cobain Interview Surfaces: 'I Thought I Was Gay, I Thought That Might Be the Solution'

Frontman said he's "the most optimistic he's been" a year before committing suicide.

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A rare 1993 interview with late Nirvana frontman Kurt Cobain recently surfaced online, giving a unique insight on the musician's state of mind at the time. During the chat, Kurt touched on the subject of his sexuality, revealing that at one point he thought he was gay. "I even thought that I was gay. I thought that might be the solution to my problem," he said. "Although I never experimented with it, I had a gay friend and then my mother wouldn't allow me to be friends with him anymore because, well ... she's homophobic. It was real devastating because finally I'd found a male friend who I actually hugged and was affectionate to and we talked about a lot of things." Cobain also discussed his childhood and family life, saying that his parents' divorce had a great impact, making him feel unhappy and lost basically until starting his own family with Courtney Love. When asked on whether he was feeling better at the time, he replied: "Yeah, especially since I've been married and I've had a child. You know, within the last year my whole mental state and my physical state have almost improved 100 percent. I haven't felt this optimistic since right before the divorce, you know. [laughs]" While remembering his childhood, the frontman said that he used to mostly socialize with girls, due to his inability to find a male friend. "I just always felt that they weren't treated with respect," he said. "Especially because women are just totally oppressed. I mean the words b-tch and c-nt were totally common. Although I listened to Aerosmith and Led Zeppelin and I really did enjoy some of the melodies they'd written, it took me so many years to realize that a lot of it had to do with sexism." He continued, "The way that they just wrote about their d-cks and having sex. And I was just starting to understand what really was pissing me off so much those last couple of years of high school. And then punk rock was exposed and then it all came together, it just fit together like a puzzle." Check out the full animated chat below.

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    Hah, I had the same problem with sexist lyrics. I just couldn't listen to a lot of bands like I used to for quite some time, knowing that they were singing about something I despise. I have learned to ignore such lyrics with time, but I get what he's saying. Cobain was a nice guy, very good interview indeed.
    "I even thought that I was gay. I thought that might be the solution to my problem," The problem being Courtney Love. I'm sure she has done that to many a man
    He was always simply a respectful human being and a passionate musician. Anything else which has been used to shape his legacy since his death is both inaccurate and degrading.
    Sammy Mantis
    He always seemed such a tortured soul...Dude just needed a little butt lovin', that's all.
    You're clearly missing the point about what he was trying to say...
    Sammy Mantis
    But he said himself that he thought he was gay at one point, what if he was? Maybe his angst and depression stemmed from his confusion over his sexuality, and all he needed to lift the clouds was a big, uncircumsised weiner in his butthole? Please try to be a little more sensitive and open minded.
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