Smashing Pumpkins' Billy Corgan: 'I Almost Killed Myself Three Or Four Times'

Singer opens up about suicidal thoughts.

Smashing Pumpkins' Billy Corgan: 'I Almost Killed Myself Three Or Four Times'
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Smashing Pumpkins singer Billy Corgan has claimed that he "almost" killed himself several times. In an interview on Last Call With Carson Daly, the frontman admitted that he had considered committing suicide "about three, four, seven times" but faith in God had stopped him from feeling "like a victim". He said: "I almost killed myself about three, four, seven times. I literally started planning my death and what I would leave behind, and what I was gonna write. Three or four times in my life." Corgan went on to say: "What I finally realised, at least on the back end of this, is that God, at least as I understand God, was there all along. Once I was able to process my reality in that way, I no longer felt like a victim." You can watch his interview in full by scrolling down to the bottom of the page and clicking. In November of this year, Corgan told NME that he had entertained suicidal thoughts while working on the band's classic 1993 album "Siamese Dream". "I was suicidal, and I'd been plotting my own death for about two months," he said. "And if you've ever read anything about the warning signs of suicide one of them is you give away all your stuff, and I'd given away all my stuff, I gave away all my records, I started giving away my guitars." "I was fantasising about my own death, I started thinking what my funeral would be like and what music would be played, I was at that level of insanity." Smashing Pumpkins released their latest studio album, "Oceania", in June of this year. The record was the seventh of the band's career and their first since 2009's "Teargarden By Kaleidescope".

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    Jesus_Dean
    "And if you've ever read anything about the warning signs of suicide one of them is you give away all your stuff, and I'd given away all my stuff, I gave away all my records, I started giving away my guitars." I wonder if he went around later trying to get his stuff back? "Dude, can I get that Strat back?"
    iommi600
    I find it truly amazing how he gave an ironic reply to his own depression by writing "Today".
    Rimfrost
    Didnt his newest album get mostly positive reviews from press and fans? If anything, that should make him relevant again...
    on3andth3sam3
    Who knew so many people were dicks about suicide?
    robo37
    Pretty much everyone who has ever logged onto Facebook after Amanda Todd.
    on3andth3sam3
    See, I don't consider her suicide sad. She killed herself because she couldn't handle the repercussions of her actions, albiet what happened to her was cruel. People like Billy have a brain chemical imbalance, and despite having many positive things in their life, they just want to die.
    iommi600
    Yeah, because being hit for no reason by your stepmother on a daily basis when you were a kid and having a dad that does not give a **** about you is probably a great life. "Disarm" pretty much explains his lifetime depression.
    iommi600
    Dammit, this was supposed to be a reply to EnslaveTheWorld's comment just above me.
    Vicryl 2.0
    he tried.. james probably yelled 'DO IT!', while Darcy laughing on his side. So Billy was like, "FUCK YOU GUY!!!", and wrote about it instead..
    BradTheBluefish
    "Te frontman admitted that he had considered committing suicide "about three, four, seven times"" I think you missed a few numbers there Billy
    EnslaveTheWorld
    Billy Corgan - One of the most irrelevant musicians in 2012, yet defiantly tries to keep himself in the spotlight by spitting out one irrelevant statement after the other. Now he's trying the "I had such and awful life. Please feel sorry for me." angle.
    SocksAndTrees
    Because if you have a lot of money and fame, you can't be sad, because as we all know, money and fame brings happiness.
    shwepper
    Actually there have been a number of articles posted on here with different musicians old and new, talking about their brushes with suicide. I think it takes a lot of strength to admit that, because when you say you seriously considered taking your own life, you get people like you that think he's being an attention grabbing emo, which isn't what he was aiming for, and is hardly a mature reaction to being publicly open an honest about dark parts of your life. Some people feel the need to explain their experiences in order to connect with a broader audience, and maybe even give them hope. Not once did he claim to have an awful life and for people to feel sorry for him. His story is being used as a platform to connect with people who have shared this experience. If it wasn't for his depression and suicidal thoughts, we probably wouldn't have the powerful music and lyrics that he created those years ago. He used music as an outlet for his emotions, which is what ALL musicians do. The man explained details of his life that aren't based around his new album, nor did he use that attention to plug or promote his product. Stop being ignorant, it won't get you any upvotes.
    Alice2Mudgarden
    Oh, Billy! I have sooo much sympathy for you! You come from such strife and a difficult environment! I know how hard it must be for a bald white guy in an alternative rock band in the 90s! You're such a hero, Billy!
    kozmo4200
    maybe he started realising that he was making music for money like he has been bitching about.
    r4sha
    it's getting weird hearing the same news of musicians plan to suicide nowadays
    TheSlyFooX
    Okay, most bands have talked about this kind of stuff and they talk about suicides and death. I love Siamese Dream and I'm pretty sure he didn't reference any kind of subliminal suicidal messages. I know how to play every song off that album, so I should know. Not disrespecting this vet, but rather commending his choice to not offing himself. I think he has written some of the greatest teenage angst songs since Kurt Cobain. Keep on truckin' Billy. Throw us your best!
    BlameTheDrugs
    "he had considered committing suicide "about three, four, seven times" but faith in God had stopped him from feeling "like a victim"." - good on you mate. I too cannot stand his voice but a suicide is a stupid idea. But seriously, I am happy for every single person who finds the inner strength and moves on. I wish Layne and Kurt were still around.